love me till im me again | tyrus

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"rocket ships will take off, wheater you're in them or not. and it's sad but it is the truth, the world will still turn without you."

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~tj~

anxiety. thats what hit me when i walked through the door of my own house. the smell of weed lingered in the air as i walked upstairs. i looked around at how much of a wreak this house was. broken beer bottles, pictures off the walls, wallpaper peeling. i can't believe i've let it come to this.

i put my bookbag down in my room and immediately began to get ready for work. yes, work. i had to work to support myself and my little sisters. if you can't tell already my parents are druggies so i have to make money for the family.

once i was done getting ready i walked to my sisters' room to take them to my best friends house. they sat in the floor playing with the dolls i bought them for their birthday.

"paris, norah, time to go." i tell them grabbing a bag full of their clothes and other things. "sorry i left you here with them."

"it's fine bubba we are ok." paris said slipping her shoes on. they both were rather smart for 4 years old. i had taught them myself, the best i could. they were born when my parents first started the drugs (after they had quit once) and i knew it was going to be hard. it is. it is hard.

i picked the girls up when they were done and carried them downstairs quietly, praying that my parents were asleep.

"mommy and daddy left." norah said as she grasped onto my shirt.

"do you know where they went?" i asked them. they both relply with 'no'.

we walk out of the house and begin down the street.

"where are we going today bubba?" paris asked me tugging on my shirt.

"where you usually go." i smile as we turn the corner. she nods "are we almost there? i love his house it's so fun!"

we walk up on the porch and i knock on the door, my best friend, answers it.

"hey tj! oh my gosh im so sorry i forgot i had to watch them today! is it okay if i take them with me to the spoon? i made plans with andi and buffy..." he smiled and let the girls in.

"of course cy," i smile back at him, "by the way thank you. i really need your help and i wish i could tell you why im going to school coming home, and then going straight to work but i can't. it's kinda personal."

"i understand but can't your parents watch them?" cyrus asks confused.

"they're that personal thing sadly." i frown, "cy i have to go i'll see you in the morning." i wave and he says goodbye.

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i end my shift at 4am and begin to walk down the street. i walk to cyrus' house and knock on the door and sadly his dad answers.

"uh- hi im tj a-shit- hi im tj and those girls are my sisters and im here to get them." i say anxiously pointing to the couch my sisters were sleeping on.

"ah yes, cyrus is up stairs by the way. actually, i'll go get him while you wake them up." he walks away from me and i walk over to the girls and gently shake them awake.

"teej!!" norah says sleepily wraps her arms around my neck.

"awh." a voice from behind me says. "i never really seen you as the lovable big-brother type but i guess i was wrong." cyrus laughs.

"hey theres a party tomorrow night...i was thinking maybe me and you could go?" i asked standing up.

"uh- tj i don't know..." cyrus bit his lip.

~cyrus~

was tj asking me on a date? no. he's straight, it just a friend thing...right?

"please cyrus i have no one to go with me." tj pouted.

"i- tj what about norah and paris?" i asked.

"i can have marty watch them it's really no problem for him." he says talking with his hand. i see bandages on his wrist. it worrys me.

"tj what happened to your wrist?" i ask pointing at his wrist.

"i um- i just got cut at work while cutting up so vegetables. no problem. are you coming to the party or not?" he put his arm behind his back.

"sure."

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A/N: i know this is really bad, it's also one of my first fanfics but please give feedback! thank you guys♡