My Step-Brothers

Chapter 57: I'm In Pain Too

E V A N N A

January 14.

My suicide date.

The voices in my head were laughing at me, mocking me. But when I woke up, I didn't want to die.

I was laughing at the voices, thinking, haha, you thought bitch.

Oops. I didn't mean to say that.

I don't know what changed my mind. I know it doesn't happen that fast. It seemed fake, but I felt different today morning. I wasn't as upset as I used to be. I felt happier. It made me upset when I thought about how I wanted to kill myself yesterday.

I called Sammy on my phone.

"Hey," I muttered.

"Morning."

"Would you care if I killed myself?" I asked.

"Of course I would! Evanna, you're my best friend. If you died, I don't know what I'd do."

I smiled. "Thanks, Sammy."

"You know I care about you a lot, right?"

"Yeah."

"I'll see you at school."

"Oh, I'm not coming..."

"Ah, Okay. Bye then!"

I hung up, sighing and got off my bed.

I got ready and went downstairs.

"Morning, Evanna." Daniel sat down.

Oh right. Everyone except Jayden-who doesn't care, and Ethan-who has a huge college exam wasn't here. Everyone else was here to make sure I was okay.

"Hi," I mumbled, sitting across from him.

"You okay?" He asked.

I nodded. "Yeah..."

"Jayden is never like this. I'm sorry," he muttered. "Ever since he came here, he acted like a stranger to us. And as soon as he was getting used to our new family, you came in."

I looked down. "I'm s-"

"It's not your fault," Daniel said. "Once Jayden gets used to you, I'm sure he'll be nice. When you get to know him, he's the sweetest little angel. But I think our father's death really affected him."

"Do you think he'll ever be nice to me?" I asked.

"He'll probably regret every single thing he did to you. So don't worry."

"You look better-" Daniel stopped himself. "Not that you weren't yesterday, or the day before that. I'm just saying you don't look as upset as yesterday because uh..."

I smiled. Daniel always did that when he messed up. He lifted his hand to take the empty cup but I flinched accidentally.

"Sorry," I muttered, feeling bad. "I'm trying to get used this..."