MAID IN MANHATTAN

CHAPTER TWO

I down my toilet door after closing it shut, I buried my face in my hand to cry I didn't want to make any noise at all realising my dad is home and worried sick of me. After sometimes, I turned the water to take my bath I want to scrub all the dirt my body touched mostly especially the unknown person I was in bed with. I cried more reaching in between my leg and saw what I hated myself for, I'm not crying because am weak no! I'm crying because I'm hurt, pained and it feel like I can't breath it is taking life from me. My thoughts wondered back to the rooftop and I'm left with questioning myself as to why I didn't go ahead with it.

I placed my leg on the edge ready to jump but I couldn't,how can I?that would be selfish of me. I can't leave my mom what if she survives which is a Small chance but still,she would be heart broken once they find my dead body scattered and lifeless, my skull opened with blood splattered everywhere like tomatoes source or ketchup. I just can't do that to her so I shifted back and grabbed my hair out of frustration and ran down . I made sure no one saw me out ,running through the back I saw someone I squinted my eyes and saw it was Mike? If he his here,who is up and why is he here? I was ready to ask but no, its getting bright outside so I snuck out through the back. With all the strength I have, I ran and ran pucking my guts out along side crying I was a total mess. Upon reaching home breathlessly, I entered the semi-door (sensor) then I placed my palm for fingerprint to gain access to the house .Once in, I trashed my sandals washed hands and quietly ran to my room.

Now I'm regretting my decision because I know I'll hate myself forever. Why though? Maybe I wanted to give myself a memorable death. I went to my vanity table grabbed my hair pin with sharp edged, went inside to fill my tub with water .I'm not living anymore my decision is made now if I die, my mom would join and we will be happy together eventually. Once filled ,I dropped towel and entered the tub I was one step away from changing my mind but images came flashes across my vision . Images of me in bed with a stranger flooded my vision without thinking I slitted both of my wrist and then I drowned my self. I did it ,it has to work it must work . At this moment, I felt nothing no emotions just numbness that was what I felt .

Soon enough, darkness opened its arms for me to join it but I didn't ,I was hoping dad would check the CCTV camera in room I waited a little longer but he didn't show so I walked into its arms without looking back. Grim reaper took me with him,I muttered a quick sorry and followed him.. I guess this is it, the end! my story ended before it even started.

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