Thug Loving (Editing)

Why She Stayed

JANAY
Warning this is going to be short,  it's just a filler.  This explaining the reason she didn't leave or didn't tell
   

I've been at work everyday this week and I'm glad I have a day off to just let loose and have fun...  Were going to the club after the reception.  I can't Wait to get out to just enjoy my self. 

I was Laying down in my bed just going through my pictures on my phone.  I came across this picture I took in the mirror behind my door in my room.  I had tears going down my face but I was smiling.

Today is the day my mom got promoted and she had to stay at work late.  It's just me and my step Dad Mitchell here.  I'm not to fond of him but I don't dislike him. it's like he try's to buy me things to like him.  I'm a 15 year old girl who wouldn't like a lot of gifts.  Anyway I was texting my best friend Kari,  she wanted me to come over tomorrow but I have to Wait until my mom texts me back.  Then I'll ask Mitchell to take me over there.  I heard footsteps coming up the stairs then a couple seconds later a knock on the door. 

"Come in! " After I said that Mitchell walked in,  he looked weird

"Wassup daughter? " That's weird  he usually just calls me Janay

"Umm  ,Nothing " I shrugged

"You know your beautiful " He said getting closer and closer to me on the bed

"Umm thanks " I said scooting back until my head hit the head board

"Do you love your mother " What type of question is that? I just nodded & he got closer and closer the parted my legs.  I had on a dress so only thing between my precious jewel and this man is my underwear.

"Wh-wha-what are you do-doing? " I said as tears coming down my eyes

"You said you loved you mother right? "

"Yes,  but stop touching me " When I said that it must've pissed me off because he grabbed my neck and brought me towards him. 

"Stoooooop!  Stop Stop " He slapped me

"Shut up " I keep screaming but it didn't stop him.  He ripped my panties off and started rubbing me.  It didn't feel good at all.  I keep trying to move but he over powered me. I tried swinging,  screaming,  kicking Nothing worked he just forced himself inside of me.

"Ahh,  fuck your so tight " It hurted so bad,   it felt like I was getting stabbed repeatedly in my box.  I felt like I was dying,  I felt helpless, and alone.  When he finished the white stuff known ass cum (I'm young but sex education told me enough) all over my stomach

"If you love your mother you won't tell,  because if you do she dies. I will murder her in front of you and then take  mine. " I wanted to live.  I wanted my mother to live.  She's the only parent I have , I know she'll do the same for me. 

I took a long hot  bath because I was hurting down there.. I got dressed and took a picture.  I was crying,  crying because I was hurt  scared, and mad.  Smiling because I was going to get through this & God has me. 

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It's now my 18th Birthday,  I'm free I can get away from this pain.  I have the job & saved up enough money for a small apartment.  My mom is at the store getting my stuff for my get together today.  I heard my door knob twist. I looked up to see Mitchell nodding wickedly

"Hey baby girl " I scoffed

"You can leave me alone now Mitchell,  I'm leaving next week No more being your sex slaves " He looked at me with that ugly ass smirk & Walked over to me and choked me up.

"No, you will not leave because if you do I will KILL your mother.  I will make it look like you done it because you wanted me,  How you think your friends will look at you?  huh?  what about the little Idris nigga ?Spending the rest of your life in jail because you wanted to be selfish "  I hated this Man with ever bone in my body.  but u loved my mother more & I stayed just for her. 

I'm so tired of doing this for my mother.  But I'll die for my mother if I had too.  She gave birth to me,  she loved me & she kept me even when she didn't have to she did.  That reason alone is Why I'm staying here. 

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If I only knew then what I know now.  I wouldve just told. That bitch didn't care about me.  Nor is she a mother,  because if she was she wouldn't let him get away with that.  If only God would've just gave me a sign telling me that she didn't give a fuck about me,  I could've had less hard aches & headaches . But instead I loved a women who didn't love me.

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Excuse any mistake

AGAIN I KNOW IT'S NOT LONG IT'S JUST A FILLER .