Life's great: for some

Chapter 2

Oh boy. Here she goes again talking about LGBTQ+, except she has no idea what she's on about, blessing us all with her magnificent, invalid, opinion. I recently learnt Tianna loves, just LOVES sharing her opinion on the gays, last time she thought Zac Efron was gay turns out he just supported them which ultimately led to Tianna making things worse by talking some shit like "why isn't there a straight pride?" or "Straight people don't get a lot of attention" or whatever: I stopped listening. This time though, how she thought gays shouldn't constantly "flaunt" their sexuality but she definitely wasn't homophobic you can tell when she says "I'm not homophobic but-" the classic. I on the other hand was desperately trying not to scream and backhand her into another plane of existence: It seemed like a good idea. 

Today was Tuesday, the slowest day. It meant I had P.E which was... fantastic, honestly once you're in year 10 P.E has no significance like I kind of understand before then when there's a chance you may pick it as a GCSE option but once you've done that and surprise! you didn't pick it cause P.E. is the devils enjoyment it's pretty much pointless. All the teachers dislike me anyway, I've never done anything which is part of the reason I guess I do tend to just stand around and do nothing occasionally walking making it seem like I'm doing something, what else am i meant to do? I'm not exactly fit, I just stand around and hope that my jokes hide my crippling hate for my body, you see i'm not exactly overweight but I'm not skinny either, I guess you could say 'thicc' as those skinny white girls use unironically. I try hard to be one of those people who preach self-love but it's just so hard to compliment myself, much easier to just say I hate myself and move on. 

Thankfully, it was lunch now and being the person I am, I mainly avoided Tianna or rolled my eyes at her but small enough where she wouldn't notice: I was getting pretty good at it, practice makes perfect. Some people experience where lunch goes so fast, not me this couldn't go any slower maybe it was because nothing was happening I wasn't exactly indulged in a conversation, just adding my sarcasm in at points. I guess Dom was here but I really didn't want Tianna starting that shit again so I tried not to follow him to obviously, although I'm pretty sure Dom did it to me then again I'm pretty sure he follows anyone who will put up with his humour, which was normally me.

"Elisa" 

I turned my head, of course Dom. He's started pronouncing my name wrong because a couple teachers called me Alice, one even called me Elisha which overly confused me but whatever. I didn't even hate him pronouncing my name wrong i was annoyed that I physically couldn't think of a way of pronouncing Dom or Domenic differently. 

I took a deep breath preparing myself for this, I just wasn't in the mood, was I ever? "Have I ever expressed how I love how original your jokes are, like I have never heard that before" I faked a smile when he laughed at my comment, I'd gotten pretty good at fake smiling and it seemed like I was doing it a lot recently I hadn't even realised I was doing it so much until it actually hurt to fake smile but in a weird way not physically but mentally like my body couldn't even handle fake smiling for a few seconds. It sucked majorly cause I didn't know why I was fake smiling so much or why I wasn't genuinely smiling, it definitely wasn't because of my friends or that they were saying unfunny things, I generally thought what they said was funny and would never give them a piteous laugh or smile, I just couldn't find it in me to smile.

I just wanted this week to be over with because it seemed with each passing day I hurt more and more.

Idk?? I hope it's alright, once again my punctuation is very bad but I'm trying. I don't want to make chapters drag on with nothing happening so I think this one might be shorter? sorry