"Thank you for watching Sugg Sunday and I shall see you next week!" I smiled a cheery smile.
I clicked the stop recording button on the camera, my smile suddenly faded. I had to put up an act. I couldn't let my little Sugglets down.
I felt my whole body slump onto my bed, curling up.
"Joe? Stop crying. I'm here, it'll all be okay."
I saw Casper walk over but I knew that it couldn't be real. I sighed softly big couldn't help myself from reaching for him as he reached for me.
"Caspar...Caspar it's been so cold...so, so cold without you here." I cried softly, biting my lip.
As I went to hug him, I felt myself hit normal air, Caspar now gone.
"Um...Joe?" I heard Louise's voice call softly as she slowly entered my room with a glass of water and my anti-depressants. "Who were you talking to?" She asked kindly as she come over, a warm, mummy kind of smile on her face.
"C-Caspar...he...he was just here..." I admitted, looking around for him.
I saw Louise look at me, kindness and sympathetic at the same time as she cuddled me.
"Well what did he say, Joe?" She asked and I told her.
"Oh, okay." She nodded softly as she passed me my water and tablets which I took in turn. "Oh...and someone wanted to come and see you!"
I looked over to the door, rubbing my tired eyes. I then saw Darcy burst through the door, running over to me and giving me a giant big hug. It reminded me Of one of Caspar's hugs.
"Joe-Joe!" She giggled happily as Louise snuck off, then her voice quietened as she looked up at me. "Joe-Joe looks sad." She noted with her soft little eyes as I tried to put on a smile.
"Joe-Joe just misses Caspie." I told her gently as I rubbed her cheek softly, watching her nod.
I played with her for a while, before Louise took her home.
I felt empty again.
I walked into the kitchen and began making some pizza. I still made two.
One for me. One for Caspar.
As I finished the first and lay it on the plate, I heard a voice.
"Joe! That smells AMAZING! You made my favourite!" I heard Caspar laugh excitedly.
I turned, fast and saw Caspar digging into the pizza, it all around his face.
"Caspar." I gasped, dropping the pan and kissing him all over but then realised I was kissing nothing. "Oh." I sighed.
I sat down and watched my pizza burn.
