"So...as we lay Caspar's body to rest, I call on his...best friend, Joseph to say a few words." The reverend ask out to the small gathering at Caspar's plot where we lay him to rest.
I felt everyone's eyes on me: Zoe's, Alfie's, Marcus', Troye's, Tyler's, Joey's, Dan's and Phil's.
I felt shivers run straight down my spine as I looked down at the coffin that held my Caspar's body inside. I'd never see him again.
It all hit me at once.
I felt Alfie reach out for me, sensing what I was going to do but I couldn't help myself. I ran. I ran for my life. I couldn't cope. Not with him gone.
I could hear footsteps pounding after me and ran faster. I could feel the waves of the high tide sea bashing against my ankles.
I took my shoes and socks off, and my tie, abandoning them on the shore as I began to walk into the harsh waves of the cold Tuesday evening.
"Joseph Sugg! Stop it right now!"
I looked up, the water splashing upto my thighs and I swear, just for a second I saw him. I stood, aghast. That was his voice. Caspie's voice.
"Caspar?" I cried out loudly as I tried to see in the mist, really hoping that it was him. I felt myself fall to my knees, the waves knocking me over into the deep, murky sea.
I closed my eyes.
"Joe...don't you dare!"
'I'm sorry Casp, I can't do this anymore." I thought in my head, trying to tell him, hoping that he could hear.
I suddenly felt four pairs of hands on my body, clutching it as they lifted me from the water.
If I'm honest, I was numb, I couldn't feel it, my whole body cold and at the stage of hypothermia.
My body was rested on a yucky surface. Sand? Definitely Sand. From my blurred vision I could make out the boys' faces.
"Joe? Joe, Can you hear me? It's Dan." I heard Dan say, slowly and clearly as he shook my body. I felt myself puke up seawater as Marcus helped me sit up.
"Where...Caspar? Where's he gone?" I asked, searching for him Amongst the faces.
"Joe...Caspar's-" Phil began
"Phil!" Alfie warned him as the boys picked me up, carrying me to the car, laying me across the back seats of Joey's car.
I then felt myself pass out.
