Snow

Chapter ninteen

Rosie and I spoke, I think we are alright now. Lisa seems happy as well, like she has not been in a while. Everything is back to normal. Well, almost everything.

Jennie does not talk to me. At all. I understand why, I just do not want to admit she hates me now. Hate might be a strong word, maybe extreme dislike?

"Jisoo!" I look over to see Rosie staring at me, "You alright?"

"Sure," I mutter, sinking back into the couch.

"You know, you've been like this for a while now," She smiles.

"Okay?"

"I think I know why," She giggles.

"Oh," I grow pale, could she really know?

"You have a boyfriend!"

I cannot even respond. Never have I felt so relieved. Rosie I love you and your complete faith that I could hold a relationship.

"Don't worry," She says, "I won't tell anyone."

"Rosie I don't have a-"

"Don't lie to me," she grabs my arm.

"Rosie I'm serious-"

"Then what's wrong?" Her face grows mischievous, she tricked me.

"I-" This is not a good idea, I should not tell her.

She just continues to stare at me. Eventually she leans back, "I'll share a secret if you do."

"Really?"

"Yup."

I have at her. What could she possibly say.

She smiles, "I've been sneaking Jennie out of here once a week since she arrived."

My eyes widen, "Seriously?"

"Yeah, she-" Rosie cuts herself off at looks away.

"She what?" I lean towards her.

Rosie moves to me ear and whispers, "She has a boyfriend."

I freeze. What? Is that why she has been so distant with everyone? Is that why she tries to stay up later than me? She is waiting to sneak out! How could I not pick this up? No wonder she was trying to make me sleep longer, she must have just gotten back the day I got up early.

Rosie laughs, jumping back and staring at me, "I don't think I've ever seen you think so hard."

Panicked, I run a hand through my hair, "How did I miss it?"

Rosie continues to smile, "I'm good okay?"

I just laugh, how could I possibly stay on the same page as someone who wrote the book? God she is good.

"You know, you're going to have to help me now." She yawns.

"Help? With what?" I look at her.

"Don't tell anyone you know, not even Jennie."

I relax, "Oh, okay."

"So what's your secret?" She smiles.

I sigh, "I'm..." I look at my hands, "I'm gay."

Rosie takes my hand, "How long have you known?"

"Honestly, there is not a specific point. Not one I know of anyway. I just always felt that way." I smile weakly.

Her grip tightens, "Then why is this happening? Jisoo, I never want to see you sad, your my co worker and friend, that means something. Why is this only becoming a problem now?"

"I have feelings for Jennie and I guess this small part of me felt that she felt the same way."

We both go silent. She just sits there and holds my hand. I think everything through. She has a boyfriend, that is of course great because she is happy and in love. She could not possibly realise how I feel. I am not mad or envious, well maybe slightly envious, I just feel sad. I do not feel the need to cry or yell. I just need some time.

I take a breath, "I won't make things awkward-"

"I know," Rosie says, "You'll try your best."

"What is that supposed to mean?" I smirk.

"You know what I mean," She giggles, "Don't worry, I'll be there to make sure she doesn't bite."

Laughing, I move us both back to rest on the couch. Wait, I am going to have to talk to Jennie.