Eli's POV
All my life I've been told that I am "too emotional". What does that even mean? Whose standards are they referencing to? Everyone is different. There is no such thing as normal. Everyone feels things. Wait no, that's not right, because $@&%#*€ couldn't feel anything, but that'll come later. Let me reword that. Not everyone feels emotions right off the bat. For some people you have to learn how to feel, and it all comes rushing in.
Anyways, I'm Eli, and my life story is pretty regular. I grew up in a family of four; Mom, Dad, my twin sister Ruth and I. We are Christians, and we go to church every Sunday, youth camp, the whole nine yards. School, sports, church, repeat. All of my life. There were some rough spots, but I made it.
Well at least until high school. I was being bullied, but everyone gets bullied, so it's no big deal. It never got physical, at least. At first it was just sarcastic remarks, but then it turned into "go kill yourself" and things like that. Pretty typical.
But what changed my life in high school wasn't the bullying, oh no. It was so much worse. She went by the name of Sophia. I was in love with her. We dated for all of high school, and I was so caught up with her. I new she was a bad influence, but I didn't care. I thought she was the only person in the world, and, looking back, that was my mistake. I put her above school, family, friends, myself, and, even though it sounds cheesy and typical, I put her before God. She was my god. At the time, I didn't realize how manipulative she was, even though everyone in my life was telling me. It's just that whenever I have an emotion, I follow it like I can't get enough. I know I shouldn't, but I do anyways. It's how I'm wired.
Anyways I went over to her house after graduation to surprise her, and I found her cheating on me.
With my English teacher.
I was appalled, and I couldn't even look at her in the face. I asked her why she did this to me. And this was her response;
"Oh, please. You honestly thought that I could be satisfied with you? Besides dating me, you have never taken a risk in your entire life. To simply put it: you're too boring....and too emotional and clingy. You're just....pathetic."
It still rings in my ears. It may sound stupid, but I loved this girl. I loved her with all my heart, despite everyone's warnings. They were right. She was an awful person.
I went home that night, but I didn't cry. I hated myself too much to. After all, she said that I'm too emotional. Like everyone else. Maybe I am. I don't know.
My parents would try to cheer me up by telling me I was too good for her. And they're right. Not to sound cocky, but she was terrible. I may be too emotional, but at least I can act like a human being.
a/n:
sorry to the three people who read my book for being so late😅. I was having issues writing Eli's backstory. Let me know if you liked it.
