Yaz added this up, she was suffering with PTSD and everything piled up. Her heart clenched with pain.
She just hugged her. "You've got visitors you've worried them quite a bit."
"m'sorry"
Graham and Ryan walked over, the older man taking her hand.
"Doc it's not your fault is it? You have done nothing wrong."
She mumbled something under her breathe sounding like she was against that idea.
"Doc stopped making things worse you've got yourself a pretty amazing girlfriend who'd move heaven and earth for you. Let her in?"
The doctor now had tears in her eyes, this was all too much her emotions were too powerful and the guilt was overflowing adding to the grieve, her head hurt too many variables for her to concentrate on anything, she bowed her head holding it in her tiny hands.
The boys decided she'd had enough to listen to and left her with Yaz who was trying to find the matter of the problem. She worked out that everything was crashing, she heard her breath increase the hearts monitor was going crazy, she was panicking creating a bubble of anxiety.
"Hey, calm down they've gone I promise. Just calm down, your hearts are going crazy."
She just hugged her hard this time, even though the Doctor was trying to escape this, she wouldn't let her leave her touch. This slowly calmed her down. She heard light breathing looking down she'd fallen asleep. Her body was warned out, she wanted to rest and sleep. But the memories came creeping in like an unwanted image. Her mistakes were slowly drowning her out.
Yaz quietly picked her up leaving the medical equipment and went to the purple sofa in the living room, sitting her down and grabbing the boys and a blanket.
"Do you want to watch something? She fell asleep, well I think her body gave up."
"Sure, what do you want to watch?" Asked the younger more awake boy
"Beauty and the Beast?" one of them suggested, with a sufficed nodded put the DVD on. Graham sitting on the rocking chair and Ryan on the other, leaving Yaz and The Doctor on the couch. Not that anyone minded she needed comfort from someone she knew and trusted with her life. As the movie was playing Yaz felt wriggles from the Doctors, catching the attention from the other two. "nightmares" she informed them, she stroked her arm, seeing that it calmed her down she was satisfied that she was more peaceful yet that was wrong the Doctor was awake listening the movie and crying silently hoping they wouldn't notice. She didn't deserve pity. She didn't deserve the love. She didn't deserve anything yet pain and grieve. She deserves that. She knew that. She moved a little bit looking like she was moving in her sleep but trying to get safer and more comfortable into Yazs' arms. Only thing she was crying with soaked Yazs' arm which she forgot and hoped she didn't feel it.
The Ryan caught the doctor crying and his heart sunk she didn't deserve this, no one deserved this amount of pain and suffering. "Yaz" he whispered, gently so he wouldn't catch the Doctor attention.
She looked at him confused "What?" she mouthed with a frown.
He just pointed at the broken woman.
She was crying
She was silently screaming
She was dying
She was giving up
"hey" Yaz nudged her slightly catching her attention, "what's wrong sweetie?" she said so nobody else would listen.
"I'm remembering." It didn't need anything else added to that.
"Do you want to go bed?"
She shook her violently, "guessing that was a no? Are the memories worse there?"
"yes, they crept in quickly"
"Well the TARDIS landed in Ryan's home do you want to go to mine? Ill ring my mum? You'll be safe promise."
"Okie, m'sorry."
"Never apology, okay do you want anyone to sit with you? They're not judging you, I just need to call my mum to pick us up you know my mum she'd move the heaven and Earth you."
"Can both of them to sit with me?"
"Of course." She said softly "Hey guys can you sit with her? I'm going to call my mum and ask to pick us up. She needs sleep and she doesn't want to go to her room more memories and nightmares so I think my home will be safer."
"Of course, we'll sit with her." The older man replied simply.
Yaz quickly popped out grabbing her phone and tapping her mums' number it was 10PM
Yaz is everything okay? It's quite late
Yes, I'm okay but you know the Doctor? The Time Lord? Well she owns a time machine and spaceship long story short, she was dunked in a witch trail. Which she isn't but shes injured and also just learnt that she was in a Time War and had to destroy her own planet to stop the destruction of the universe including Earth so can you pick me and my girlfriend up? And can she sleep in my bed? She scared mum, she wants to die. The memories her TARDIS carries are overloading, and she afraid to be alone.
Of course, Yaz I'll put the kettle on and tell you dad to make your bed including more pillows, is she alright?
Mum she was begging me to let her die.
Poor thing her life sounds terrible.
Trust me watching her chained up and thrown into water was frightening enough. But I need to get back to her shes with Ryan and Graham but she doesn't trust them and shes crying.
Of course. Wait were, are you?
Grahams home.
Oh, okay I'll be this in about two minutes.
Okay I love you.
