You Found Me (Destiel/Sabriel Highschool Love Story AU)

21. I Get It

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// Castiel's POV

"Everything." Cas stated, looking into the green eyes.

Dean looked a bit shocked and worried at the same time.

"I remember kissing Meg in front of you. I remember being drunk. I kissed her in front of you. On purpose....I think. I wanted you to see how I felt when you kissed Tessa in front of me. And yes I know she kissed you and I kissed her but...you did return the kiss.

I remember Charlie calling me and taking me to you." He said.

"Oh Cas...I- I'm sorry..." Dean looked down at his feet.

"I remember saying horrible stuff about myself. And...I remember you...kissing me." Castiel whispered.

Dean glanced up at Cas with sad eyes. He looked hurt. Was Cas not supposed to know?

"God Cas...I uh. You weren't supposed to find out. Or this would happen. Listen it... I was drunk. It was a mistake."

And with those four words...Castiel's heart shattered. His eyes widened and filled with tears. He tried to blink them away. He tried to swallow the growing lump in his throat. But he just couldn't.

It was a mistake.

That's what it all was.

Even this.

This entire thing. The meadow. The lake. The flower.

It was just all a mistake.

Dean was drunk. He didn't know what was happening.

Dean Winchester was straight.

And it was all just a mistake.

Castiel dropped the flower and stepped away from Dean.

He turned away from him. He didn't want him to see the single tear that fell from his eye as he choked on his breath.

"I- I get it. Thank you for clarifying that Dean. I understand." He stated loud enough for him to hear. His voice was raspy.

The lump in his throat grew.

And he ran.

"W-wait Cas!" Dean called behind him. But Castiel Novak didn't care.

He ran past the lake and deeper into the woods.

Stupid. You're so stupid. Of course Dean doesn't like you! You're such a stupid faggot. The voice in his head laughed. Alastair. His voice just kept teasing him and taunting him.

"Shut up." Cas whispered.

He didn't even know where he was going. He was running in the opposite direction of the Impala.

He just didn't know where he was going anymore.

Castiel ran until he was out of breath. And he still kept running.

His foot caught on a twig and Cas fell face forward down a hill, hitting his back on a rock.

He stood up. His back ached with pain, but he didn't care.