Blue Tears and Blue flowers...

Chapter Five

Edd was begining to worry more and more with every pasing day, as Tamara was not getting better with her condition. In fact, she was getting worse. She began to vomit up blood and even more flowers. She almost choked to death on a large rose. Luckily, Matt smacked her back so hard it sent the exotic rose right out of her throat. A shiver ran down Edds spine as he remebered that horrific moment. He wanted her to get better but... The only cure for this is... A surgery but.... If she gets the surgery... She won't be able to love ever again... Or even feel love at all... He didn't want that for her... He wanted her to experiance love for someone. He wanted her to be happy. He wanted to see her next to someone who loved her and cared for her. Hell, she was like a little sister to the cola lover! The last thing he wanted was for her to be unhappy! But he also didn't want her to die. The two options bounced around his head and slowly gave him a terrible headache. He went into the living room to watch T.V. and rest his mind.  He really wasn't sure how to tell Tamara her two options.... He had done a bit more research and found out how to cure her disease. He didn't like that option a whole lot... He let out a heavy sigh of worry and just watched T.V. as he still tried to relax and calm down.

Tamara lay in the guest bedroom bed. Her mind blank, her stare towards the ceiling emotionless. "Maybe... If I.... keep avoiding him.... These feeling will go away...." Tamara teared up. She wanted to get better, to be near Tom. But, she knows it's not gonna be easy. Or quick. She sighed and began to sob silently. "Why me... why does this stuff always happen... why can't I be allowed to be happy? Why does this world hate me so much?!" She screamed at herself. She curled up in the blanket ad slowly began to sleep. Her sobs never ending, and her tears stinging her cheeks and eyes...

Later in the day, Edd decided to tell Tamara her options. She didn't have much of a reaction. "So.... that's it.... I die or my feelings die....." Edd  nodded and looked down. Tamara sighed. "Well, the feelings will go away either way.... I don't like the idea of loosing my feelings but... It's better than death... I still wanna do so may things...." Tamara said in a very plain and bored voice. Edd looed up at her. His expression went even more glum. Tamara sighed. "Then you're...." "I'm getting the surgery."