Loss or Love

- Euphoric adversity -

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(*Namjoon POV*)

I regret never saying it out loud... all I wanna do now is scream as loud as I can. Because I don't Just love her, I adore her.. I need her.

I'll make my signed rule invaluable for you, because I can't stand our parted ways anymore. This kiss I plant low-centred on your face are watered with sweet tasting passion, and the feeling it gives me is like the most beautiful spring day of blooming love.

RM: "Y/N can I ask you something?"

Y/N: "Oh Yoonie, you just did" she chuckled sweetly

RM: "Oh god, I've missed you so much!"

*On their way back to Y/N's apartment Namjoon kept humming on a song, Y/N kept looking out the window. Switching between a smile and a burdening thought*

(*Hoseok POV*)

JH: "Jimin... I need to get some air"

JM: "No worries, I'll stay here just in case jungkook comes back to consciousness"

I needed to get some air in order to stay calm. My feelings where overflowing, because i am so so happy, that i'm almost at the edge of losing my control. But at the same time it is still this unsolved shitty feeling clinging to me, keeping tight grips around my neck.

Standing outside in the cold was refreshing and calming. Breathing in the clean air felt amazing, with a hint of relief.

A car faded to be clearer in the distance.

It stopped a little away from me and a silhouette seemed to rush out of the passenger side.

Y/N: "Hoseok!!"

JH: "Y/N!"

She ran towards me, i held out my arms to welcome her to my embrace. She'd been on my mind, i've been so shameful! And i'm so incredibly grateful for her and the wellness she seems to be in at this moment. If not for her.. Jimin and I would never have been where we are.

Y/N: "What are you doing here?"

JH: "Jungkook and Jimin is here too.
Let's go inside"

Y/N: "Wait!"

Y/N: "JOONIE!!" shouted towards the other approaching silhouette.

RM: "Coming!"
He started to slightly run toward us, and he followed behind as we walked up the stairs and into the apartment.

JM: "Y/N!" Jimin looked at her with worry and didn't really know what to do...

Y/N: "Jimin!" She walked up to him, and he embraced her with relief.

And then he lowered his voice, whispering into her ear:

JM: "I really need to talk to you... alone!"

She looked at him sweetly with acceptance of his request.

RM: "How's Jungkook? Is he okay?"

JH: "He's fine, Taehyung however..."

JM: "Hoseok... he'll be fine as well! Don't worry"

I did worry about Taehyung... his state is still critical, and he's important to me. Along with the others he's a part of our group, and I won't imagine what disaster's awaits with Jungkook if Taehyung leaves.
They're almost like me and Jimin... but definitely not as close, not even near. That brotherhood is too strong to break, there's a line there which won't be crossed. Unlike with me and Jimin who seemed to have been leaping over a tiny line several times since we first met.