killer, gbd (EDITING)

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a/n: if you get uncomfortable just skip the chapter it's honestly not that important
ps. i love ya and i hope you enjoy xoxo
pps. this isn't edited

The space between us in the elevator holds a strange silence and after talking about past missions and partners for so long, I can't help but think of Grayson. He has haunted me relentlessly, but this time it's different. Not only do I think of him, but now I imagine to be with me every step of the way. Instead of Dani's figure standing beside me, I imagine Grayson's tall stature instead.

A painful comfort hits my heart at the thought of him being here with me. When we get back to the room and I only wish to undress and crawl into bed, it hurts to know that Grayson won't be the one I lay next to.

"Do you want to use the bathroom first?" Dani asks, loosening his tie. My floor bound eyes lift to Dani's soft ones. Their pretty blue holds oceans, but they do not hold the depth of Grayson's stunning hazel eyes.

My fingers rub my throbbing temple as I remember that he had asked me a question. "No, go ahead. It doesn't matter to me." I say, taking a seat on the bed that I wish to be alone in.

What if I were to try talking to him again? Would he reject my words, be angered with my presence, or would I see that smile and fall in love all over again? It wouldn't be hard for me to fall back into his arms, even though I was the one that ended things. What if he no longer cares. What if he's grown cold to me, he would have full right to do so because of my actions towards him. None of these things should matter, because I did at one point think very strongly that we should spend some time apart.

Dani comes back out of the bathroom, only in his cotton shorts. His physique is toned and impressive, but my eyes do not wish to run over his body. I stand immediately and dig to find shorts and a sleep shirt in my made closet.

When I escape into the bathroom, I strip from my clothing and place them in the hamper Dani had set out. I slip into my new clothes and put my hair into a low braid. I wash my hands and face with the hotel soaps before returning to my spot on the bed. My eyes stay glued to the floor, but my peripheral catches Dani laying on top of the sheets, tv remote in his hand.

His gaze burns into me as I slip into bed. My legs flourish with small goosebumps but warm up under the thick sheets. Though I turn to face him, I don't make eye contact with him. "Are you okay?" He asks softly, putting on some movie that I can't understand because of the language barrier.

His question makes me fight back tears and clench my fist. My eyes lift to his, his brows are furrowed but in a sympathetic way. His expression does not show judgement, mostly concern.

I think for a moment of how I should respond to the simple question. "Ya," I finally mumble. "Just missing someone pretty badly." I admit, Dani nods.

"Do you want to talk about it?" This question in much easier to answer. As soon as the words leave his mouth, I know my exact answer.

"No." I shake my head and sit up, exposing my upper body but being sure to keep my cold legs covered. I look over to him and can't help but imagine Grayson. Guilt fills me, but sadness over powers it.

Dani's eyes glance to my lips, slowly returning to my eyes after a moment. "Is there anything I can do to help you?" He asks, letting his eyes fall to my lips again. Knowing what he is trying to do, I catch my bottom lip between my teeth. What if I were to let go.

"Pretend this didn't happen in the morning." I say, sliding my hand up his jaw. He leans into me, connecting his lips to mine. I shut my eyes tightly and pretend that it's Grayson that I am kissing so desperately. I fight back tears to the point that my hands shake as they dive through Dani's soft hair.