~bad vibes forever~ XXXTENTACION fanfiction

Save me

mikkisylveon

Jah held my hand for comfort. Letting the stress out of my body. "I will talk about it later." I told everyone...but after a long time of waiting in the room I heard the door crack open as I watched to see who is coming in.

"Alrighty. You'll just need this shot and you'll be fine to leave." The doctor said as I got another shot in my left arm. After the shot my mom left to sign some papers and my sister went with her. Jahseh gave me a kiss on my forehead as I reached and gave him a hug as that was what I needed right now

The ride home felt as if it was more than thirty minutes. My mom and sister went to their rooms while Jah went to the kitchen and cooked for me. I always love to his cooking especially his curry chicken and steak

My turn lol

Jahseh wouldn't me out if his sight making me sit at the table in the kitchen. He would turn around every 5 seconds just to make sure I wasn't gonna do anything or that I was still there

He was cooking up a storm though. The food smelt good, at this point I was just sitting at the table with my phone texting Austin

I didn't tell her what happened though cause I didn't  want to alarm her at this time of night. Plus she's at Stokeley's house so I just want her to be there instead of here even though she'd want to be here

Jahseh just finished putting the chicken and steak on both of our plates. He put them at the table but he didn't sit down

He walked over to me and put his put his head to my forehead "why Aryanna why" I could see the tears coming out of his eyes

I heard him sniffle followed by tears gushing down his face. I put my hands on the back of his neck

"To escape all this pain" he lifted his head up and looked me in my eyes

"Aryanna I'm always here you know that I'm here for you" I squeezed my eyes shut trying to stop the tears from coming out but that didn't work well

"Jah it's just hard right now I've been questioned non stop by police and I have to fuckin testify in September and I can't take all of this shit ok, I just CAN-" I got interrupted by Jahseh's smashing his lips against mine

He placed his hands on my lower back picking me up while we were still kissing

We crashed on the couch having me on my back and him on top of me. He pulled back "Aryanna please don't leave me please don't fuckin leave me if you died I would kill myself" more tears left his eyes

I felt that when he said it. The words it just hurt to see him hurt, I'm hurting him

Fuck why am I like this

"This is all my fault" he looked at me confused

"What's your fault"

"Its my fuckin fault your hurt because of my dumb self it's all my fault"

"Aryanna know don't say that your depression is not your fuckin fault, non of this is it's only the gut that raped you that's it" I started crying and crying

I couldn't stop all the memories from prom came flooding in. When he was on top of me

My reflexes came back since Jah was on top of me and that reminded me of when the guy was on top of me

I started hitting jahseh again but he grabbed my hands. He got beside me laying there while holding me trying to calm me down

"Ary everything will be ok I'm here" he said while cuddling me. I eventually calmed down and became tired because how much energy I had taken out on Jah

He wasn't fazed at all he just cuddled me until I eventually went

To sleep