~bad vibes forever~ XXXTENTACION fanfiction

let's pretend we're numb

Aryanna

It's been really hard these past few weeks . I feel bad because ever since the incident I've started to slowly push away the ones who care about me the most

I still try to talk to my friends and stuff but I find it hard to trust.

All that's really happened ever since grad was just questions after questions after questions after questions

I feel like I've spent more time in a police office then I have at home. All the stress has got to me. I'm trying to be more happy but there's always that voice in my head that's says

Why do you trust these people

I'm still holding on because I haven't lost my happiness completely.

My friends check up on me constantly sending text messages. Overall the people that have sent messages the most are Stokeley, Austin, and Jahseh. I'm not saying the others don't care but those three have sent the most messages

Austin has been at my house the past few weeks on and off. While ski has been taking me out to do things like go shopping. He said that he's was hoping that it would clear the air a bit and take my mind off stuff.

Jahseh however has been sleeping over at my house since the situation. He says that his consciounce is telling him that if he leaves me alone I'll hurt myself. I knows that I can't take this pain but I'm still holding on.

My mom isn't even bothered that he's stayed this long, she just said

"Ary you know that if a man is willing to stand by your side through all this pain he truly cares for you"

I believed her when she said that. The love is real between me and Jahseh and I feel that it will go on forever.

Right now we were sitting in my room watching a movie like we usually did. We were watching trolls and he did it in a attempt to make me laugh and smile and honestly it worked

"Her friends got kidnapped and this bitch is dancing and prancing" this boy could make me laugh all day

I was sitting in between his legs with my back to his chest and his hands were around my waist. We weren't on our phones or anything just paying attention to ecahother and the movie

"So Ary" he starts playing with my hair

"So Jah"

"I've wanted to ask you this for a long time"

He's gonna ask me out

"Yea what is it"

"Can i uh"

"What Jahseh"

"Can i use your bathroom" I got up and hit his arm. He held it in pain

"Ow Ary why you gotta do that"

"Why you play me like th-"

"I'm joking ok calm down" I straddled him and put my arms around his neck. I gave him puppy dog eyes.

"Ok but seriously Aryanna would you like to be my girlfriend" my heart started to beat so fast.

"Oh my God YES"

I didn't know what else to do or say so I crashed into his lips and kissed him. He was surprised at first but after a few seconds he kissed back

Incoming cringy smut

We started making out for 2 minutes taking breaks in between. It felt awesome to be able to get this close to him. I liked the feeling of this

He pulled back from me and looked at me