My own worst enemy

Bye bye dream life

JESSICA'S POV

After that night, it was like we got hooked at feeding our sexual desire.
We had sex with every opportunity.

In the morning, when we were jogging, we stayed a little behind and got lost in the forest.

I think the forest was waking up a beast inside of him because every time we did it there he lifted me and fucked me against a tree. Other times on the leaves
and when i was too tired to go back he even crawled me. Not even snow wasn't stopping him. I was a very good girl when it was snowing because i didn't want him to put any in my vagina, having some in my butt was enough.

In the noon when everyone was in the cafeteria, we knew that we had to eat too so we used food with sex. We used to eat things from each other's bodies. I think it was Sebastian's favourite sex of the day because he could bite me more freely.

My favourite sex of the day... Well it was depending at the program but it was definitely when we were in the shower. He always got there first so when i joined him i could enjoy a few moments of seeing him, sceptical the most times, peaceful, the water running from his head to his amazing abs to the bath floor. I was hugging him from behind first and when he would turn up to me he would kiss me sweet. Like the water was taking away all the aggressiveness he had. He would then got inside me and i would put my nails to his back.

Worst part of the day? It was at night... When those damned nightmares began. It was really bad, every time i was waking up screaming and crying in the sight of the hanging boy and the stabbed girl.

"Hey, hey. Shhhh, it's okay. No one is going to hurt you. It was just a dream. I am here now." Sebastian said holding me into his robustly arms while i was crying.

I said nothing just kept crying. He kissed my forehead and wondered.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No... Just hold me."

He sighed and i continued "Please don't leave me, i don't know what I will do if you do."

"What are you talking about baby girl? I will never leave you! Ever! You hear me?"

I touched my head on his chest and he hugged me tighter.

As the days gone by my nightmares became worst and my performance weaker. If i didn't do anything fast i would have lost my place at Quantico. So i talked to Sebastian about the content of my nightmares and told him that we should sleep separately at night because i didn't want his performance to get lower too. He didn't agree at first but he understood that it was for the best.

When i started sleeping in my room, Alexa noticed about my problem and introduced me to some pills that could solve my problem. She, herself was taking some pills but it was rather for pleasure than need. It was against the rule but i couldn't say anything, she was my best friend, she tried to help me and the pills she was taking didn't affect her performance.

A few days after i tried the pills, i could say i felt worst than better.

We were running for our regular morning jogging and i was feeling like i was doing it for the first time.

"Love, you feeling alright?" Sebastian who slowed down so he can run next to me asked.

"Yeah, why?"

"You look kind of pale to me."

"I'm good. I might got my period i don't know."

"Didn't you get it last week?" he stopped, stopped me and asked "If i didn't know any better i would say you are hiding something from me."