Broken Hearts

20.

The next day when I woke up Tae was already up. I could hear him in the kitchen cooking. I got out of bed slowly and walked up to him.  "Hi" I said shyly. The boy turned around and hugged me while giving me a kiss on the forehead. "Hi baby. Did you sleep well?"He asked to which I just nodded. "Okay great. So I made you breakfast. It's nothing big, don't worry. Just some toasts and some tea. Okay?" He looked at me with a big smile. I knew he was trying to hide it but I could see in his eyes how sad and worried he looked. I hated that I drove him to this point. I never wanted him to see me like this. Without saying anything I took the plate and sat down at the table waiting for him to join me. Tae was right, it wasn't a lot of food but it was still food. After we ate, we got ready for school and left. 

The school was pretty much the same as always. Nothing interesting was happening, the teachers were stressing us about the exams and students were sleep deprived. I had few study halls so I decided to take a break and get some fresh air. I packed my stuff and made my way to the roof. No one really came there so I knew that I should have some peace. As I suspected there was no one here. I sat down on the ground and looked up at the sky. It started to get dark already and it looked just beautiful. The colours of pink and purple were slowly fading and more of orange was visible in the sky. I was staring at this in silence when suddenly I heard a voice. "It's very nice isn't it?" I turned around to see Yoongi sitting behind me. I don't know how I didn't notice him or the fact that he is smoking cigarettes. I looked at him with fear in my eyes. "calm down. I will not do anything to you. " He said reassuring and sat down next to me. He showed me a pack of cigarettes while he was already getting another one. I looked at the packet and decided to take one. After all, you only live once right? He looked at me shocked but didn't say anything. We were sitting together in silence, smoking. I looked with the side of my eye at Yoongi and honestly, he looked so hot smoking. I loved Tae and I would never want him to smoke but there was something about smoking that made people look better. Not me of course. I looked like an idiot. "I am sorry about Jimin. If I knew what he will do to you ...I would never allow it. He really loved you, you know? Maybe he didn't show it but he did and you coming into school with Taehyung it just broke him. I am not trying to say that what he did was okay. Hell, he acted like a dick, even more than usual but just try to think about it okay?" I listened to Yoongi's soothing voice. Maybe he was right. I mean Jimin did react really bad about all of this. Maybe it was my fault all along. "Sorry. You probably have to get to class soon." he added, seeing how troubled I looked. "You are not going?" I asked. "Nah. I don't feel like it. " he said and gave me my bag. I took it and throwing away the cigarette walked back to school. 
The rest of the classes went fast. I was too busy to listen to the teachers either way. My mind was filled with my conversation with Yoongi. Even though it was short it gave me a lot to think about. I definitely wanted to talk to Jimin now. Maybe explain and apologise even. I felt bad leaving him. For now I was on my way home with Taehyung. We were listening to the radio with me singing some of the parts when suddenly Tae turned the music down.
"So listen baby. I know we are not dating for that long but I am gonna visit my parents during the holidays and ... I want you to come with me." tae said while stroking my hand. I was so surprised. Happy but surprised. What if they won't like me? Who am I kidding, they WON'T like me. I mean look at me. I don't deserve him and both me and them know that. "I would love to but I don't have a passport and I don't think I can get one in time." I answered sadly. I could see that Taehyung got sad too but I knew he will get over it. He will be fine. "It's okay. It's my fault that I didn't say it sooner. Next time?" He asked to which I smiled and nodded.