Red Purple Hope 💖💜💖💜 - Completed

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The room was so quiet. Very quiet. There was a sound of heart beat heard vividly through the monitor device that stood right next to the patient's bed. A quite thick blue curtain covered the windows which was directly revealed the beauty of the center of the city, especially at night. The temperature of this room was quite cool, the air conditioner was set in a comfortable degree. A slight smell of antibiotics collided with the room fragrance came out from the humidifier near the bed where Sho was lied down.

His eyes were closed tightly. His lips were also tightly closed as he was breathing slowly. His chest went up and down stably. He didn't look that bad like all media reported in news. He was just like a sleeping prince. Only, there was a new IV line connected his hand to the clear bag of liquid hanging on a thin pole next to his bed. The last suit he wore had been changed to a light blue patient's outfit. His right hand rested on his stomach while the left one was on the side of his bed.

A soft click of the door and a footsteps slightly entered the room. The steps slowly drew closer near to the bed where Sho was laying down. Then the sound stopped.

J was standing on the corner, a bit further from Sho's bed. He was frozen. He didn't move nor do anything but to stare and stare at the shadow leader of ARASHI who was now sleeping sound. There was not a single word uttered from his mouth.

He gradually moved closer. His mind was hazy, it went round and round like an old film rewinding all the memories from the previous scenes in a movie. All the things he went through in the past with Sho and all the experiences they had together were like orderly coming back, one at a time.

He remembered the first time he joined the Jimunsho. The moment when he saw this boy with amazingly round forehead in that dancing studio. He was a bit taller than J was yet considered very small for a senpai. His nose was small, pointy but sharp. And who could forget those hamster like teeth, or squirrel's or perhaps rabbit's, he was called as a grain of rice, but then J also was considered as an insect by Sho. His wide big eyes were kinda unusual for a Japanese boy. Sho used to say that he was amazed by the size of J's eyes in one of Arashi's interview.

It was still drawn clear in his mind, the first time they showed up on national TV together. The some times when they began their show with the others Johnny Juniors with Takey the senpai in  Junior time, including the time when they got detective role in one short drama. The time when Sho began to be so close with him and started to call him in a nickname as he pleased. Macchan, that's how Sho called him. It sounded awkward but he kinda liked it.

It's also still linger in his mind how Sho whom he considered not only an amazing person finally was able to convince him to continue his study, to graduate and finish school and continue to high school at the time when J thought that school wasn't important anymore since he thought he was already got a job and earned his own money. Those were times when he began to think that he found his true idol. A person J's finally admired so much. He was awed by Sho's intelligence, stamina, his point of view about being a true professional, his discipline and all the characters J thought would have owned by a perfect son of every mothers around the globe to have. 

As if he realized all the reasons for him to idolize his brother, He felt his eyes were moistened by the tears that started to burst out from them. He felt like his face was getting warm. Who didn't remember the vow he used to make back then in the documentary of their first concert. It was indeed embarrassing thus deep down the proud of having Sho kun as his ichiban - with a big bucked teeth smile on his face, proudly telling "You're my ichiban, I like you!"  to the camera man while staring at Sho who was wearing orange short sleeves shirt and being embarrassed by it - was somehow still there. All the memories he remembered tightened his chest. It felt like somebody had squeezed his heart from the inside. He began to realize that it so hurt to see a person he actually cared about was frozen sleeping in that bed in front of him.