Red Purple Hope 💖💜💖💜 - Completed

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The hospital hall is getting quiet. J slowly walked past several rooms as he tiptoed quietly. The lights had started to be turned off. The nurses and hospital staffs were at the hall. They stared at J and bowed politely as he passed by to reach Sho's room where he was being treated. They all seemed to understand, J could only visit at an unusual hours. Not just J, all ARASHI members were allowed to visit at any time they please because of their busy schedules. You can't imagine being a public figure with so many jobs and all awaited in front of them. It was like impossible for them to match their schedule with the hospital's visiting hours.  Even though it was like a special treatment for the stars.

J walked calmly approaching a male officer who was guarding near the front door that led to Sho's room.

"Sakurai san, is he awake?" Asked him politely in a very low tone. Apparently J wanted to make sure the voice came out from his mouth didn't bother anyone around.

"I don't know, sir, just check to see for yourself there, perhaps you can still see him," the man replied also in a polite manner.

The security guard was quite friendly. Even there was a bit of awkwardness as J approached him. The man often heard how firm "the super star" is, so he was a bit more nervous and kinda careful in facing this sturdy man. J nodded politely. Again he raised his hat with a slight bow of permission. his eyes were still clinging behind the thick frame glasses he wore.

"Sho kun ..." Whispered J as he opened the door of the room where Sho kun was cared for. He glanced at the bed. It was empty! Nobody's in the room. He then glanced here and there. Sho kun is not there. His eyes were scanning again towards the window of the patient care unit. The window was tightly covered in a flowing gray blue curtains to the lower end of the insulating light. There is nothing else from the side of the room. 

Suddenly J was stunned, at the end of the bed, there was a small notebook opened. He glanced at the book. The content had already visible and J finally lifted it to see what was written on it. But then he was stunned. There J saw some scratches. It looked like the brother's trying to draw of something. He narrowed his eyes as he tried to identify the object his brother was trying to draw. It looked like a key - A key and three big question marks underneath, then one unclear scribble on the side which was then struck by a ballpoint mark that Sho kun seemed to add to erase the traces of the previous writing.

"Eeeehhh ~~~" J gasped softly, he remembered the dream he had experienced a few weeks ago, when Sho kun was still lying unconscious. It rung clearly in his head of how in the dream the brother grabbed some kind of an object and tried to say something before the dream ended.

"The key, It's not the right one ..." That was what J remembered well.

"Ah, It's you..." A hoarse voice from behind kinda startled J and interrupted his thoughts about the dream he had experienced.

"Sho ... kun ... You look a lot better now, you can walk around already..." greeted J rather awkwardly. He hurriedly returned the notebook he had held and placed it quietly on the bed behind his back before Sho noticed.

"Ah iiee... I only went out for a while. This room feels too quiet and laying in this room all the time makes me feel kinda bored. Hopefully tomorrow the Doctors will let me go home, It seems too long already..." Sho Kun muttered, ending it with a sigh - a boredom that can't be hidden.

"How are the preparations ..." continued the older brother in hesitant but he seemed serious, although he was like trying to change the topicof conversation But then the his atmosphere changed, he could not hide his guilty feelings. He sat down on the edge of his bed This shadow leader's face turned a bit glum.

J didn't answer. He still stared at his brother like he was suddenly loosing his energy. Seeing J's reaction, Sho kun turned a bit clumsy while scratching his temples spontaneously. He straightened his sitting position but then his busy went hunchbacked again helplessly..

"Aaah ~~~ Gome ..." Sho murmured softly. He looked down.

"huh?" J frowned. His mind wandered. There was an awkward feeling, but it all mixed with all the puzzles in his head ...

"What do you mean? You don't need to apologize. Everything that happened was not your will."  J continued as he was clearing his throat trying to get rid of his awkwardness.

"Go back to bed, you still need lots of rest." Said J suddenly, while directing Sho to go back to his bed. 

J ignored Sho's previous question. The time was not quite right anyway to talk seriously about the preparation of the 20th Anniversary concert. His brother still needed a lot of rest, it's still two months away anyway. He believed Sho could catch up with rehearsal, coreo and everything.

Sho obeyed the youngest member's 'order' as he slowly laid down carefully. Before Sho laid down, J quickly patted Sho's pillow and arranged it in a position that was J thought quite comfortable for his brother to place his head. Funny, they were not touching each other at all. With Sho's strange gaze, in half staring wide, he could not take his eyes off J. In astonishment and wonder, never before had he been cared for like this by the youngest. It was unusually amazing! that what was Sho kun's thinking.

J did not care anymore, he tried to get rid all the awkwardness. He gently pulled the blanket that was still sitting at the end of Sho kun's hospital bed and spread it to cover his brother's feet to stomach who now is lying. Like a child who was ready to be lulled, Sho kept staring at J in amazement. But, not one bit J looked back at him, his eyes fixed down to the positions of the blanket as if he  was seriously tidying and arranging it on his brother.

"Go to sleep, I'll be back later." J murmured while smiling slightly. Sho, who had not yet got off his eyes on him jerked and immediately looked away and hid his glaring eyes while clearing his throat. He quickly stared in amazement to another direction instead, so as not to get caught, XD

"I gotta go now, I just want to make sure that you're far better, I mean... your conditions," continued J as he sat on the chair next to Sho's bed.

"Ah, haik, eehem!" Clearing his throat Sho kun was still feeling awkward.

"Yah," answered J shortly.

He lifted his had and made a small wave as he rose from his seat.

"Jya, I'm going now.." J pointed his hand to the door. As he turned back his body and almost walked away, he suddenly stopped. Sho glaring at him and widened his eyes. J unexpectedly returned back and he was approaching Sho again, well, like a half meter away then drew himself nearer. He then hesitantly touched his long time fellow shoulder, like a short tap on a shoulder.

"I'm... I'm glad you came back to us, okaeri..." J felt like he really wanted to pat his head but then he didn't. J couldn't do it. He wanted to but it't a hard thing so forget about it. All he did just tap Sho's nadegata shoulder, just once! And went back to the door and waved a little.

"Matsujun!" Called Sho kun spontaneously,

"HHmmm?" J turned his head.

"Arigato ne," Show murmured quietly as he waved back. Once again J waved back then dissapeared behind the door as he closed it behind.

***
J sighed. In the corridor outside not far from Sho's room, J's head tilted down as he walked along the hall of the patient care unit. Finally he chose to sit down for a while, alone in the lobby near the VVIP main entrance.

"Why does it seem difficult," he thought.

"I just want to know what actually happened to me," he whispered inside.

J's curiosity was so big that he really wanted to know why all the things he experienced happened to him. He felt like he still needed to find more answers. Like the meaning of those dreams he intensely had before Sho waking up.

He took out the thing he was looking for from the pocket on his pants. He flipped and flipped back and staring at it for a while as he was thinking hard. However, it seemed that what he did just made him more puzzled. He finally just sighed and inhaled deep, as he put back the thing inside his deep pocket again.

J rose and walked away to the entrance. He looked down in a gloomy face as he took out back the white mask he wore before and put it on his face and disappeared behind the elevator door nearby.