My Diary

I just want to be happy

I just want a happy life.

That's all I want right now.

I don't really feel happy at all.

I feel so lonely and lost.

Everything I do is wrong.

I just need to see my friends more often. I miss all of them. They understand me and they keep believing in me no matter what happens. I need to spend more time with the people I love. But it seems to be not as easy as it looks. They don't really have the time to see me all the time and I think I will get on their nerves as time goes by. That is what I always think. I overthink everything and that is one big mistake I do everytime. I want to stop it but I can't. I really can't. As much as I want to stop it, I fail every time. My mind is so much stronger than my body. I can't keep it calm. I always overthink and overeact. That is one thing that makes my life so much harder than it already is at the moment. I just want freedom. Freedom abd happiness. And to spend as much time with my friends as I can. They make me happy. I hope I make them happy too. I really try to be a good friend and always protect them. But what can I do to make my life better and make life worth living without feeling depressed and sad all the time when I'm alone?