Sad why don't we imagines

Bully- jack

trigger warning- mentions of self harm and suicide, don't read if sensitive 

I stare down the long halls of my school, just wanting to go back home. I walk down the hall holding tightly onto the straps of my bag. keeping my head down, avoiding eye contact at all costs.

"io Y/N!" someone shouts

I froze, my anxiety rising to the point I find it hard to breathe. that's not just someone that's Jack, Jack Avery, my bully.

I couldn't respond, I didn't want to respond

"hey slut! I'm talking to you!" he shouts as he grips my writs forcing me to face him, I wince in pain as his finger push onto my fresh scars that lay on my wrists.

he seems to notice and his eyes go soft until I spoke.

"what do you want" his eyes darken and his jaw clenches

" that's no way to talk to me, now is it princess?" the venom laced through his voice.

I cringe at the use of the word princess.

"let me go jack, please you're hurting me" I pleaded

his eyes got darker as he saw me beg for him to stop, soon I feel a sharp pain in my stomach as I fall to the floor crying for him to stop, but like always he doesn't. 

he crouches next to me and whispers 

"why haven't you killed yourself yet, please just do us all a favour and do it already, no one wants you here" 

that's all it took for my decision to be made.

"gladly" I whimper 

jack looked at my shocked

"what" he asked confused and worried but I was already out the school doors. on my way home, sobs escaping my lips as I ran.

next day

jacks pov

I felt awful for what I said to Y/N, I know I bully her but its because I like her. it sounds so stupid and it is stupid. but its because I know I could never have her, she didn't like me and it pissed me off so I started bullying her, to forget about her.

we got called into an assembly, which we only have if something important has to be announced. 

I enter the hall scanning the bleachers for Y/N, but she is no where to be seen. 

I sit myself down by my friends, us talking amongst each other until we hear the principle get our attention.

"every one settle down"

the hall fell silent

"I have gathered everyone today to talk about a very horrible and devastating event that happened yesterday, if you have not heard already, yesterday at 1:24pm a student named Y/N Y/L/N took her own life." gasped were heard along with the cries of her best friend Amber.

I was frozen, I found it hard to breathe, the room was spinning, I felt dizzy, I had to leave

I stood up and ran out of the hall everyone watching me.

I was unstable, tripping over my own feet, I pushed the doors open falling over from my unsteadiness. I felt to the floor, sobs escaping my mouth

"its all my fault" I whisper to myself

I'm so fucking sorry Y/N, I never wanted to hurt you, I will live with this till the day I die.