lmao it's just me being emo at the start but then me saying random shit later

meh

I dont know what to write but i just want to write and see what happens so here we go

It was my first day at my new school and I was feeling confident and proud about my choices, my mother was not, she still wanted me to go to Harvard medical school so that she could finish out her own dreams. All though I have had this talk with my mother before that "I would rather be going to the community college near our house and making the honour roll than go to Harvard and be at the lowest of my class and get humiliated" but she wouldn't listen and honestly I wouldn't listen to her because the truth is, is the fact that I had sex with my anatomy teacher to turn my D to a C and I guess you could say that in the process I got the D ( I will leave I am sorry for that joke). I was arriving at school when I noticed a really cute new guy, I had taken an introductory course during the summer and got to meet my two new bestfriends, so I walked over to him and asked him what his name was, of course he had to be just a little fuck boy and said his name was cutie, so fuck, you already know I walked away from that shit. I went over to see that my friends arrived so I said hi and walked into the building with them into our different classrooms.

I noticed her when she walked through the door, long red hair and sparkling green eyes ( Was she Fiona from shrek??????) and pink finger nails, I was in a daze, I snapped out of my daze when the bell rang as a clue for teachers to start the day and get on with their hour and a half long lecture that would seem to last forever to the students but would only last thirty munutes for us teachers. When I glanced over my shoulder I scanned my eyes across the classroom taking in the fresh out of highschool faces and then look over the familiar faces that I have seen many times before and would recall their names in my head as if it was a lesson plan. I looked over my shoulder to see half of the class almost falling asleep and half of them struggling to gather all the information down on a piece of paper and a device that we call a pen. As I turned back around I could feel eyes glaring into my back and my head wondering if the kids were looking at the board or just trying to pass the time by glaring holes into my back as I explained the lesson for today and what the homework will consist of and how they will doo it. Halfway through my lecture I hear snickering from behind me when I turned around to face the chalkboard, instead of turning around to face the kids and have them immediately stop once they see my gaze land upon them, I would just memorize their voice, sounds weird but I have done it before and the kids hadn't talked again since I called them out from talking all of class and reaveled their anatomy scores from the last trimester, sounds cruel but it works and I have seen an improvement in the students grade in my class since I had done that. At the end of my lecture I heard the high pitched ringing of the red sphere on the top of my chalk board next to the clock that I catch students look at to see how many more hours will they be stuck in this classroom until lunch appears and takes its seat as the students rush out of the classroom to feast their eyes upon the not that bad food but way overpriced cheesesticks that are just about in their reach before devouring it though they have to make sure that they are saved a seat next to their friends and or family members so that they do not have to look around and ask awkwardly for a seat that they know has been taken away from them and have to just make it through to finding a seat and eat alone at lunch.

The lunch rang as my fellow peers got up from their seats to go to lunch as I sat nervously not knowing what to do because I was in a new school full of people that I didn't know except my two besties who had lunch at different times than me, I am scared which is hard to admit, in highschool I was always the girl that you would go to if you felt sad or lonely but know I am the lonely one and I don't know what to do except stare ahead and try not to cry. I was staring at the ground when I first actually noticed him, he had short black hair and a muscular build that made him but not too muscular, he sat there in his chair looking at us with wandering eyes and confused expression as he waited for me to leave.

"Do you plan on leaving?" I tried not being rude but I couldn't, she was interrupting my time, "Can I stay here?" she asked with an innocent tone as she slightly cocked her head to the side signalling to me that she was really interested on staying here and eating her lunch instead of going down to the lunchroom with her, was she really being serious? Like I get that the first day can be nerveracking but really, you really want to stay here?, "You can stay here if you finish homework while you are here and to come with me whenever I leave the room because I can't leave the room with a child in it." "I am not a child" she stated as he crossed her arms over her chest "Yeah because you sure are an adult sitting in here with your head down to nervous to try and leave this room" I stated "Fine you win" she said and walked out.