lmao it's just me being emo at the start but then me saying random shit later

update

So first of all if you expected this to be a book where it was going to head in the same direction as the title then you we wrong and second of all the reason why I havent been updating is because this school year I have developed a lot of anxiety since I lost nearly all my friends like seriously I had more than nine friends before and way more kind of neutral friends that could develope into a bigger friend group but I lost that all when they say that the friendship got "less interesting" but at that same time I came out as pansexual to only a few and I guess those few people outted me-is outted a word? probably not but fuck it- and thats also when they started hanging out with a person that bullies me and I made them choose have me as a friend or her as a friend but since I am telling you this story right now you can guess which side they chose. I also started investing my time into drawing, writing, and painting, late last year I wrote my first short story which was thirteen pages long following a horror theme non realistic but could actually happen in a situation like for example since none of yall are actually going to read it I will just spoil it for you the main character(s) has Disosciative Identity Disorder also known as DID or Multiple Personality Disorder and during that time we see her multiple personalities like Marissa who is bat shit crazy and the little girl better known as samantha or the only sane person Vylad and many others that are worked into the story but those three are the ones that come out the most.
Marissa- bat shit crazy and delusional thinking she is better than everyone else and has it out for everyone
Samantha- Sweet and innocent or at least that is what you may think
Vylad- fucking sane and sweet but also tough and cold
In the beginning of the story Marissa is taken in by a group when they find her running away from them at the train tracks and when she is taken in she is given this sludge or what the strangers call "The Living" but whenever she drinks it she halucinates and starts to believe that the strangers are just aliens in disguises pretending to be human and she even thinks that she sees one pull back their skin and since they did give her an unknown drug they do keep her quaratined and put her in what she calls "the room" where she is later abused in and forgotten in until one day she escapes by murdering all of them and when she does she follows the train tracks again to find a nice buzzed woman who admires her disorder and calls all of them beautiful before she goes back home to her daughter while she is sleeping and this is where the point in the story that the other personalities are introduced-I guess you could say I pulled a little sneaky on ya- and when marissa finds this out she goes and tries to murder the nice woman but before she can she goes into the wrong house and tries to murder the wrong woman but ends up being captured and tortured later being rescued by police and put on trial. You will have to wait until I write the second part to figure out what comes next