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one

Ashton's POV: 

It all began on a tuesday. The memory of what I had done still isn't quite clear. But what is clear are the scars on my wrists. The scars on my skin have turned into this redish violet color. I can't describe the color it is now nor can I describe why I did what I did.

My fingers traced the scars that were right above my veins in my wrist. I sighed deeply. 

I was lying on the hard bed that was provided for me in my stall. My eyes looked from my scars up to the ceiling. I pictured it being the sun, or the clouds, maybe even the stars. Anything but a cement ceiling. I want to feel the air against my skin again. I want out. 

"Hey Irwin!" I heard someone call out to me. I jumped a little startled. It was just Calum whom dragged me out of my thoughts. Calum was another patient who I have became good friends with. His cell was right across from mine.

I dragged myself out of my bed and walked over to the bars of my cell. My fingers wrapped around the cold metal bars. "What?" I asked him. 

"If you had one wish from a genie, what would you wish for?" Calum asked me. My eyebrows knitted together in the middle of my forehead. Who thinks about questions like that? But when you spend time in a mental ward you begin to think to yourself a lot. 

"I don't know." I muttered honestly. 

Calum gave me a hopeless smile, "I would wish for a record player to play music and I would ask for a Led Zeppelin record. Preferably Led Zeppelin IV." 

I chuckled, "I think that counts as two wishes Calum." 

"Well it gets pretty boring here. I would love to hear music again." Calum said. 

I nodded in agreement. I totally agreed with what he had said. What is a world without music. "I love Led." 

"Me too, what is your favorite song?" Calum asked eagerly. He seemed excited that I was also a fan of Led Zeppelin. 

I shrugged my shoulders. I toke a deep breath and really thought about it. "It would have to be When The Leeve Breaks." From that statement, it caused Calum to smile widely. 

"That is an amazing Led song. Mine would probably be Stairway To Heaven." Calum seemed to be really excited to talk about Led Zepellin. I could tell that he loved them. 

"Why is that?" 

Calum shrugged his shoulders up, then down. "The song doesn't have an actual meaning. It means what you think it means, like what you interpret it to be." I nodded as if I understood what Calum was saying, but I really didn't. "Like to me, the song means that their is a lady who is filthy rich. Like she thinks that everything that glitters is gold. But in the end really, we all die. We all go six feet in the ground." 

My eyes widened to what Calum had said. It was true. We are all the same when we are dead, so why label people differently now? 

"Break time!" One of the guards called out. He started unlocking our cells one by one. All of the patients that were in this hall, which were about 25 people made their way out of the door. Break time consisted of us all getting to hang out in this room for about a half hour. The room had a few board games, couchs, and even had a window to look out of. 

I entered the break room and immeadiately walked straight to the window. This was my routine everyday. I would always stand in front of the window and look out of it until break time was up. 

The view from the window was a forrest. I would watch the trees sway back and forth. Sometimes I would even see birds. One time I got real lucky and saw a fox. 

I rested my arm on the window sill and sighed deeply. "Hi." I heard a voice say next to me. It was a feminine voice. I looked over to my right where the voice came from. It was a girl, she gave me a hopeless smile. "Do you mind if I look out the window as well?" 

I nodded silently as she looked out of the window. I heard her take a deep breath. My eyes traveled onto her face. Her brown eyes closed, she looked very peaceful. "I'm Ashton." I said which caused her to open up her eyes and look over at me. 

She gave me a half smile. "I'm Lucy." That was a pretty name. Lucy was pretty as well. She looked away from me and back out the window. I continued to look at her. "Are you gonna keep looking at me, or actually start a conversation?" 

My face twitched and flushed with embarrassment. "Sorry." 

"Don't be." She gave me a reassuring grin. I looked down at my feet and smiled. 

"Would it be too much of me to ask why you're here at Greendale?" I whispered. She shook her head and tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear. 

I watched her long lashes rub against each other as she blinked. "It's fine." She said taking a deep breath. "I-I killed my boyfriend." Her lips quivered a bit. "I stabbed him 17 times." 

I nodded. "I'm here because I was planning on killing my family. I stood in front of my classroom and slit my wrists telling everyone I was sorry." I lifted the sleeve of my sweater up, and showed her the scars on my wrists. Her cold fingers traced my scars as she toke a deep breath.

"Thank you Ashton." She whispered. 

"For what?" 

"For not judging me for what I did." Lucy let go of my wrists and looked back out the window. 

I shook my head, "What you did doesn't define you." She gave me a small smile before walking away from me. I watched her walk across the room and sit on the couch. 

I turned back and looked out the window. A smile couldn't help but form on my face. 

Author's Note: 

So yeah, this chapter is super short because well it is the first chapter.

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