You & I -HyunIn [under construction]

5. I know you dont like to be alone

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The school day had just ended and for the first time ever I was free for the rest of the day.

Since it is the first day I thankfully did not have soccer practice. I already knew that starting tomorrow my schedule would be very strained and I would not have a day off for a while.

As I walk down the hallway leading to the main entrance I can't help but think of Jennie and our relationship.

A small chuckle leaves my mouth as I reminisce about all the great memories we share. And how we would continue to make memories but just not together anymore.

Ever since we went on that cruise everything changed. I don't know how to explain it but I just don't feel like the same person anymore. Or even feel the same way towards her that I used to feel.

Before with just one glance in her direction I would feel my heart beating harder against my chest. A smile automatically making its way onto my face. And an overwhelming amount of joy by just being in the same room as her.

I noticed that once we got on that cruise our relationship shifted in a completely different direction.

We were no longer going out on cute dates or exchanging small smiles and I love you's to one another. We were no longer holding hands or cuddling or even talking like normal couples do.

Our relationship had completely changed from a cute and soft one to one full of lust and sexual desire.

The thing is I never wanted it to end this way.

I never wanted to get to this point this fast In our relationship. At the time we went on that cruise 3 months ago we had only been dating for half a year.

We were not at that point yet.

I did not want to be at the point yet. But I loved her and this is what she wanted.

So that it how I just let myself be dragged into something I did not want. I wanted to wait a bit longer before we took that next step in our relationship.

That step that just makes things that much more real. I was blinded by my love for her at the time that I just let myself be carried away.

I wanted to wait until we had been together for at least a year and were both ready to take that step together.

The more I thought about that first night, the more I thought about how it changed our whole dynamic.

Everything became so physical and so full of need on her part. I just wanted to love and cuddle her but all she wanted was for me to fuck her.

So our relationship continued that way and now 3 months later it has only become worse. I don't like what's happened to us. At first I was doing it for her but I can't take it anymore.

As I finally make it outside of the school I make my way towards the parking lot and started my drive home.

As I got home I threw myself on my bed and pulled out my phone. I had finally convinced myself that what I was about to do was the best thing for me.

To Jennie! :

me: Hey Jen can we please meet up? There's something really important I need to talk to you about.