Somebody That I Used To Know

Chapter 27

[This is very roughly written. Legit too much errors. Mediocre ko 'no? Lol]

One amazing thing about humans is that, they are capable of thinking, thus they are capable of coming up with rational decisions. The downside of being human is that our mistakes are more likely to cause damage than other existing creatures. And as humans, committing a mistake is normal, doing something that will create damage is normal but choosing to perform
something that will cause damage to which you are conscious of the
repercussions of is simply stupid.

We've been romanticizing things from cheating to poverty. We are aware
of all of this and we witnessed the havoc that they caused. Pero here we are still perpetuating them, I guess we never learn.

I've been questioning my decision right after ko siyang masabi. I know
sooner or later that 'yung path na pinili ko ay magdudulot ng damage na hindi ko pa definitely alam exactly kung ano pero may clue naman na ako kung ano. Going back to the discussion, I'm aware na there would be damage in the future for the act that I just did last night, does that mean na tanga ako? Does love always has to entail stupidity? Katangahan ba ang magmahal... ng dalawang tao at the same time?

After our confession-Theo and I kissed each other. It wasn't a simple kiss. It was a gentle one that expressed our longing for each other. It was a kiss that reminded us how we love each other despite the fact that we've broke up and have been in very bad terms before. The way he licks my lower lip and makes his way inside my mouth is tremendously addictive. I swear my knees were shaking and I probably have drowned last night if not for Theo's muscular arms placed around me for support and to pin me harder on his body.

He tasted of all the good things in the world, spring, rainbows,
testosterone, alcohol, love, peace, solace, name it, I just tasted paradise
on our kiss. It felt different than our kiss in Tarlac. That probably tasted
all the bad things this world could offer. Thinking of it right now, parang gusto ko pa ng isa.

We walked together pabalik doon sa hotel na tinutuluyan namin. Walang
nagsasalita sa aming dalawa pero magkahawak 'yung mga kamay namin. Thank the gods walang masyadong tao that night since busy pa rin sila sa mga parties at walang nakakita sa amin.Well, less chance naman na mamukhaan nila ako or makilala pero there's a possibility na baka mamukhaan nila si Theo and that would probably mess things up. People nowadays would post anything na makita nila about sa isang relevant personality just to gain relevance din. They wouldn't even think of the implications their actions could have. All in the name of clout.

Pagkapasok namin, wala pa ring tao. Josh must be enjoying himself pa rin sa party that time. We just continued walking with our hand tightly interlaced. Hinatid niya ako hanggang sa harap ng pintuan. I looked at our intertwined hands to give him the signal na kailangan na niyang bitawan.

Buti naman he retrieved and executed my gesture properly, akala ko kasi hindi na bibitawan ang kamay ko. Not that I don't want that, it's just that I really need to be alone that night and think through the massive storm I just formed.

"Thank you," He had this tiny smile plastered on his face. He seemed to like what just happened, huh? "I thought I would never have the chance to explain myself out. It's suffocating you know. Having to conceal what I truly feel for you until now from the moment our eyes met sa bar."

"I can't say that we were on the same page that time but eventually I found myself on the same situation you were trapped in." I shyly smiled at him. This is getting embarrassing, I have never acted like a teenage kid ever since I've reached my adulting stage. Grabe. "It's getting late na, I have to leave pa by tomorrow. It's been an eventful day."

"You're already leaving tomorrow? Don't you want to stay longer? Let's
spent some alone time together." His offer was tempting but I've got
business in the Philippines that needs fixing. "I have to leave, and you have to stay to finish all your scheduled
transactions." Tumango-tango naman siya sa sinabi ko. "Good night, then."