Once upon a beach

Chapter 9

-Hi it's me! How are you?

-Hey, I'm ok I guess, how's the tour going?

-It's amazing! We are having a bigger audience than we thought we would have.

-Well you guys are good...

-Are you sure... (noises block the rest of the sentence)

-Sorry I can't hear you, I said.

-I asked if... (noises again)

-Sorry, still can't hear you

-Emily?

-Yeah?

-I miss you...

-I miss you too...

-Hold on, the manager wants us something.

-Ok.

Felix didn't come back to the phone that night, I wanted to tell him about the stalker, but I never got the chance. All I could hear after he said he would be back was people talking and loud music, so I hung up. I released a big sigh and wondered why I tried to tell myself that Felix and I was going to work out. I knew how it is being on tour, from all the tour videos I had been watching through the years, so many people want their attention and I was just one in the crowd of thousands of other people. I would never be able to fit in their circle of friends, I was too much of an outcast.

Felix was also the second most popular person in the band and I had already watched people throw themselves over him and he never seemed to mind. I thought that I would be so easily replaced. I wasn't jealous of the way they threw themselves at them, I was jealous of the way they seemed to fit in the social situation without any hesitation.

I went to bed not long after that call, cried my eyes out for the situation I was in. I really liked Felix but this whole story with the stalker was really getting to me. I felt so stupid about the way I was thinking, but I couldn't help myself either.

When I woke up the next morning, I had gotten a text from Felix which said:

Morning love. I'm sorry I didn't come back to our conversation. Everything is so hectic, we have to go to all these different places and hang out with our fans. I really miss you and all I want is to fall asleep in your bed, with you beside me. I've been listening to a song that makes me think of you a lot lately, it's called Home soon by Issues. Not all the lyrics fits but the line where they sing "Nights like these when I need your touch, kicking it high in the back of my bus. Thinking 'bout you, while you're thinking 'bout trust" feels like they hit home. I know you have trust issues and with me being so far away, I'm guessing you are having a second thought about me. I hope I can make it up to you when I get back home. I love you...

"Damn, he does know me" I thought to myself. I didn't reply, everything was too overwhelming and I'm not good at dealing with my feelings when things get like this.

A couple of weeks went by, Felix tried to both call and text me, but I never replied. I had to figure myself out, I couldn't let his calls get to me, I needed time to think. He continued to call me every day, in his texts he begged me to answer, but I just couldn't.

One day Tina showed up at work, it was a big surprise as we hadn't seen each other for quite some time. She was very busy with work and finding her own place and I was so busy with work, especially after the coffee shop opened.

-Hi Emily! She said with a cheerful smile as she gave me a hug.

-Good to see you! I said as I hugged her back.