All Over Again ➝ (A PeteZahHutt FanFiction) - Completed.

Mourning Over Her

~~ A week later ~~

I've become depressed. I can't stop thinking about Kara. I shut everyone out. Mitch, Rob, Preston, Matt, everyone.

I wanted to be alone. No-one will ever understand the pain I'm going through.

Kara and I were together for 3 years. We had our whole lives planned out together, when we were getting married, where we were living, I wanted to spend my whole entire life with her.

I begin crying at the thought of her. ... Why did I let this happen? Why me..? I basically killed my own girlfriend.

I ruined us.

I ruined me.

I cry at the thought of her, and begin to rub my eyes. I go to the restroom and see a bottle of pills there.

I grab the bottle of pills. Brandon, you would be with her. You would be happier, and you wouldn't have to be lonely down here.

I shrug and open the bottle of pills and put some in my hand.

I shook my head and put them back in.

She wouldn't want that.

I walk to my room and see some rope lying on the floor. I immediately grab it and look up at the fan.

I begin tying the rope on the fan and began to take measurements for around my neck. Brandon, you wouldn't have to be depressed anymore. Think of her, think about being there with her. Nobody cares about you anyway.

I shook my head and dropped the rope.

She wouldn't want that.

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almost ended it there lol

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I decide to get out of the house. I can't do this by myself, I need to get out of my own living hell. I walk to the park and look around. Couples, everywhere. Why didn't I see that coming?

I sigh and kick around a few stones.

I miss her so much, more than you'll ever know. Why couldn't it have been me?

The wind blows my hair and something falls next to me. I look over to see what it is.

It's a trashcan. I look up and see a park ahead.

This is where Kara and I met...

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It was the summer of 2013, I was 16 and very lonely. I had little to no friends, so I would go and walk the park by myself.

One rainy day, I saw a girl with long blonde hair, she was sitting on the swing set, and she looked very upset. I couldn't help but not ignore a pretty face like hers, so I quietly walked over to her, and she stared up at me, tears filled in her..

precious, blue eyes.

I begin to cry as I remember this flashback.

I feel bad for her.

"Hey."

"Hi..." Her voice was so soothing, she has the type of voice that you would want to hear for hours, never getting bothered by it. That's how beautiful it was. She was entirely beautiful.

"i couldn't help but notice..." I began to stutter while talking to her. I didn't want her to hate me like everyone else did. "But.. you seemed upset.. do you want to talk about it?"

She began to cry even more, not knowing what to say, and I didn't blame her for that.

So all I did was give her a hug, and I heard her gasp and loosen her body a bit.

Her scent was like a warm day in the fall. Her warmth was like a fireplace. Everything about her was perfect and unique.

She slowly let go and I looked at her. She pointed to the swingseat next to her, and then she began to tell me about her parents dying.

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I can feel a drop of tear, wait no not a drop, more like a stream.

A stream of tears flowing down my cheek.

I loved her so much. I began to yell and looked up in the sky.

"Kara! Why did I do this to you, to me, TO US?"

I fall on my knees and began to sob harder.

"I want to be with you, Kara."

I go to the trashcan and find a glass bottle. I throw it against the ground and pick up the broken glass and held it against my wrist.

"For you my love.." I whisper as I cut open my wrist and blood starts to pour out.

I feel lightheaded and everything is becoming pitch black. I fall face first.

"Oh god, nononono, oh my god. I need to call 911."

I can faintly hear someone, it sounded like a girl.

"Please still be alive, please." I can feel her trying to pick me up in her arms, and trying to keep me alive.

"Hello 911, yes. I have an emergency... My name is Aria Rolland and.."

Aria.

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WHY PETE BABE WHY?!? QQ WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF

*qq's for the whole day*

I told you guys I was going to write another chapter soon!! (Didn't think it was going to be so soon omfg but I just had to ok I'm already loving this series/story and I just MY FEELS AHHHHHH ;-;)

*clears throat* IN OTHER NEWS, I will be updating I love you, 5. today as well, I think I will update THIS story tomorrow.

Also, speaking of my other story, did any of you noticed I changed the cover photo? (lol watch it be me that only noticed it b/c duh it's my story) but.. do you guys like it? :D I kind of do, but I didn't imagine Andrea to be like that so I might change it again.....idk......

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