In The Arms Of Possessive Lucas Pimenova

Chapter 16

Chapter 16: Marked

Kinaumagahan ng magising ako ay sobrang sakit ng ulo ko. It feels like it's breaking. Nang makabawi ay napalingon ako sa kabilang kama. Wala ng si Sir Lucas do'n kaya naman napatingin ako sa orasan. 9AM na. Dali-dali naman akong naligo at napatalon dahil sa lamig ng tubig.

I try finding a clothes that is thick enough to make me warm in the cold weather pero parang minamalas naman ako dahil do'n. Napangiwi naman ako nang makita ang kulay pasa na bilog sa ibaba ng collarbone ko.

Napaisip naman ako ng nangyari kahapon at tanging naalala lang ay ang uminom ako at nalasing at dinala dito ni Sir Lucas and that's it!

I cringe at sinubukan hawakan iyon at hindi naman iyon pasa dahil wala namang masakit. Discoloration? No? No! Ofcourse not!

Nang bumaba ako ay nagkakapirmahan na ng papeles. I greeted them a good morning at gano'n din sila.

"So, would you like to scan the place?" Ani ng may ari ng bahay.

Sir Lucas just gave her a nod.

"Sige, should I gave you a guide or ako na lang ang mag tu-tour?" Sir Lucas chose a guide.

The owner is old enough to the point na she looks like she is easy to feel tired and for that, Sir Lucas made a right desicion.

Nang nasa Land of Hope kami, which is a land full of grass, flowers and good vibes ay iniwan na kami ng staff. It is the last spot we chose to go para na din makapagrelax.

Sumakay naman ako sa swing na nasa pagitan ng dalawang puno.

"Sir, dito ka oh!" Turo ko sa isa pang swing. Sumunod naman ito at umupo lang. "Ang ganda dito, Sir." Wala sa sariling sabi ko. "Para saan po ba ang lupain na 'to?" Tanong ko.

"I don't know. I was planning for something but it's not that clear for now." Sagot nito at tumingin sa malayo.

Napatango naman ako. I pointed him the color yellow flower na napapalibutan ng white flower.

His brow formed a lined, questioning.

"I saw a something like that earlier." Pagbabahagi ko dito.

"Something what?" Tanong nito.

"I don't know. Discoloration I think."

"Hmm? Where?" Takang tanong nito.

I pointed my collarbone.

"I saw a violet here. Parang pasa." I look at him. "Tumama ba ako sa kung ano kagabi? I just remebered getting drunk at nung hinatid mo ako."

Tumingin lang ito sa akin at ilang sandali pa ay tumingin sa malayo.

"Just forget about that."

"Pero, did I just hit by something?" Tanong ko uli dito. "Gusto mo bang makita? Para maalala mo na din." I offered at akmang ibababa ang sleeve ng damit ko.

"Grey, better be careful with your words and action next time." Seryosong aniya at tumayo. "If I am those assholes, I'll take advantage you."

"Huh? Nagtatanong lang ako." Takang tanong ko dito.

"Let's go and put ice on your 'discoloration'" He emphasized.

"Eh?" Sumunod naman ako dito nang pumunta ito sa may dalampasigan. I was amazed how lovely the sea is. "Ang ganda!"

"Yeah."

"You made a right desicion, Sir. Kahit anong gawin mo sa lupain na 'to as long as you keep the beauty of the sea, everyone will like it." Nginitian ko ito.

Napatingin naman siya sa akin.

"You think?" I nod. "I wish I can also keep the person."

I gave him a positive smile.

Ang lalim naman ng pinanghuhugutan nito.

"Sir, may girlfriend ka ba?" Tanong ko. Umiling ito kaya napahinga ako ng maluwag.

"Can you stop calling me 'Sir' when it's not office time? Sometimes it's annoying thinking that you're talking to me civil yet you still call me that." Parang inis na aniya. "Just call me something or what so ever."

"Pwede ba kitang tawaging 'bugnot?"

"The heck?"

Natawa naman ako sa reaksyon nito. We sitted there quitely and thinking about something.

The blue watered sea is beautiful enough not to be happy.

Hindi ko naman maiwasang hindi maisip si Papa. Is he really dead? Or if not, is he doing fine? Kumain na ba siya? Or does he miss us? Does he miss Mama and Me? Does he remember Mae? Does he remember me? Iniisip niya din bang nasasaktan kami? Iniisip niya din bang nahihirapan na ako and there are times that I want to give up on my life at siya dapat ang nando'n to cheer me up instead of me, myself?

Does he think about what he left?

Hindi ko naman maiwasan na hindi masaktan. My chest hurts.

I hope I can find him sooner. I wiped my tears.

It was a dark night. There are typhoons and the clock says it's 12 o'clock in the evening. Still, Papa's not home. Napatingin naman ako kay Mae, she is crying at si Mama naman ay bakas sa mukha niya ang pagaalala na nakikita kong pilit niyang iniwawaksi iyon. 1AM at wala pa ring Papa na umuwi. I was the chill one in our family kaya naman nakuha ko pang mag laro malapit sa may glasswindow but suddenly, the wind blows at napakalakas no'n. Enough for the glass to break. It caused me a bruises na hindi ko ininda but what caused me big time? The trauma. While I was looking outside habang ginagamot ni Mama ang sugat ko ay may nag flash na kung ano sa isipan ko. It was an image of a man, getting beated by the two man at his age. He was pleading, crying for his family until he look at my direction, he smiled. Hanggang sa nagising ako sa iyak ni Mae. A nightmare. Nakatulugan ko na pala ang paggagamot ni Mama. And a day after that day, no Papa showed. But the only thing that I remembered in that flashed image is the gold eagle pin that for me is the only evidence that can lead us to a clearer view of what really happens to my Dad and if I am given a chance, I'll fine it now but I don't have one.

"Grey, you okay?" Tanong nito.

"Yeah."

Inaya ako nitong tumayo at kumain. Sumunod lang naman ako dito.

Napatingin ako sa likod nitong papalayo. That night was also dark and typhoons was there. I was scared being left again. I was scared because that past made a marked on my heart. A marked that whoever I have and I love today is my chance to value them for tomorrow for no more what if's and pains.

Lucas Pimenova is one of the person I will value in the rest of my life, I promised.