Save Me? •KianLawley, Depression,suicide•

Chapter 2

Bullying bullying and bullying

Almost everyday Lucy tells me "lose some wight fat ass" in front of eveybody, and guess who go running and crying to the bathroom to cut ? Yes its Lauren

I started hating myself everyday more and more ...

Im standing in front of the mirror just staring at my ugly fat body, my ugly face, my ugly arms that had these cuts.. Why ? Why do lucy loves to bother me ? Why me ? Start crying and cant stop.. Like always!

Its 3 in the morning im crying my eyes out in front of my macbook; somehow lucy found my twitter facebook ask.fm..etc and shes sending Hate like "kill yourself bitch"

"FAT LOL" "nobody even like you haha"

I go get my razors.. Get my jacket off and start drawing at my skin

Blood comes out ... Wow what a great feeling i just love it so much!

Next day at hell.. Sorry i meant school, there is this new boy his name is Kian, today when lucy start bothering me he stopped her and said "gosh, dont you have something batter to do?" She walked away ashamed! Yes thank you, he just stood there staring at me with a smile gosh hes smile is so beautiful!

"Hi my name is kian whats yours ?" He said

"Hey im lauren, thank you tho for getting lucy away" i said

"Its okay" kian said

"Okay see you next time i have to go" me saying looking down

"Sure yeah, have a good day" kian said.

Hes so cute! Luckily Kian's with me in my math class

Lucy is with me too in the math class, as always shes throwing sticky notes to me i dont open them a lot bc i know what was writing on it; hate hate and hate!

I dont even know why did i open them today but i did..

"Dear Lauren

You look fatter today, everyday you get fatter wow look at yourself what is that ? Fucking fat! anyway did you knew what leen have told me ?"

I stopped here wait what? Leen ? She fucking hate you! how ?

"She told me everything!

She told me you pathetic Lauren cut your self lmao! Self harm ? Hahaha stupid girl! and youre a suicidal ? Then fucking commit suicide bitch!"

I start crying so hard but still without a voice because im in the class and they cant see me crying!

Then the bell ring

Kian looked back at me and he asked me whats wrong ? While hugging me so hard oh my god i needed this hug so bad! I cried on his chest for like 30min and its was the best feeling.

after that we skipped the next class together.

We got outside and sit he just looked at me in the eyes and said whats wrong ? Tell me now without lying!!

I didnt want to tell him because he will know my self harm problem.. So i just said the first part "Dear Lauren

You look fatter today..."

He told me dont listen to her shes just playing around and shes just jealous..

Then we talked about ourself and

stuff.

Got back to my house and i cant stop thinking about leen ? How did she tell and why? Shes the only one that i trust! Not now i guess..

Why would she do something like that ?

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Hey guys !

So i did a vine edit about the two chapters if you would like to see it and i will really be thankful you can see it in my vine its Kidrauhl ❀ O2l !

I think im gonna do like these a few times but yeah

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