The next day in school i wanted to talk to leen so badly for what she did
I was looking for her but then i spotted her with Lucy!!! WITH LUCY???!! REALLY LEEN?!!
Shes talking to her laughing and stuff, what ? Why? She said she hate her !!
I wanna go talk to her but lucy with her i cant.. I cant!
They saw me looking at them.. Lucy grabbed leen arm and walked to me and said "Hi Lauren, this is my new bestfriend! You know her right?"
"I though i knew her" i said
"Aww little Lauren you dont have any friend" lucy said
Leen and lucy started laughing, they hit me and got away !
Really ? Did that just happened??!! She was my only friend omg why would she !!!!
I got really really sad ! Why would she do that ?
While walking home some car stopped for me, its kian!
"Come in" he said
Seeing him made me smile!
We got some McDonalds, we start eating and stuff
"Lauren what happened today?"
"nothing"
"Dont start lying i saw lucy talking to you this morning"
I took a deep breath and said "that girl that was with her: was my only friend!" My eyes started to get teary
"She start hanging out with lucy.. Well when we was friend she said she hate her so much i dont what happend.....She told her everything i said to her..! "
kain stand up and hugged me.
"Im sorry, she wasnt your really friend if she left you! its okay im here! Im here for you, i wont do anything like that, common smile i love your smile"
"Thank you kian" i smiled and hugged him
He got me home and told me" forget about that bitch you dont need her!"
Walking out of bathroom i stood in front of the mirror crying so hard
I hate my self i hate my self !!
Why am i so fat ? I cant live like this im too fat i cant !
I need to starve myself theres no way i can stay fat like this !
So i did.. I didnt eat for three days just water and here i am i've lost 8 pounds!!!
I feel a little pit happy i've lost wight yes !
-After a week
Im a lot thiner then last week thats so good !
I spend my lunch time with kian;
He looked really sad today, i dont know why!
I asked him "whats wrong kian?"
"Its been a week since you eaten with me.. And youre getting skinner and skinner and youre face looks so tired! Whats wrong lauren? Whats going on ?"
I started crying and said "Im sorry kian" and left
while getting out lucy pushed me and made me fall in front of everybody and they all laugh
I get up crying and left
I knew my life will not get batter
I thought for a sec maybe if i got skinner nobody will bully me
Everybody will love me
But no everybody hates me everybody !!
What did i do ?
I got home theres no one here!
i knew its time to go i need to go
I dont fit in im worthless im ugly im fat nobody will cry if i died nobody will care i know that nobody will even notice
Im crying a lot! Im shaking i cant breath i need to kill myself
Im writing my suicide note
"Im sorry mom, Im sorry dad!
Its not your fault i love you so much!
Its just i dont fit in i cant do this anymore!
Please tell my friend kian lawley that i love him so much "
Im shaking im gonna do it
Im gonna kill myself Finally!
Crying so hard that i cant even breath gosh
The bottle pill is in my hand im shaking !!!
Im gonna do it
I swear im gonna do it
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Save Me? •KianLawley, Depression,suicide•
FanfictionLauren is sad teen Shes suffering from depression, anxiety and shes a suicidal.. She met that boy named kian will he save her from what shes going throw?
