Save Me? •KianLawley, Depression,suicide•

Chapter 4

I close my eyes for a min

Just thinking for the last time

"Im going to commit suicide im gonna end the pain"

I say loudly ! I know no one home its okay !

I was in front of my mirror saying goodbye to myself

But then

The door open slowly and theres

Kian standing in tears!! His eyes were so red his cheeks are red !

"I was listening in front of the door" he says almost whispering

"What?" I say when i cant breath

He looked me in the eyes and coming closer to me

"Why? Why didnt you tell me that you've been in pain ?" He said while crying

He saw my arms oh my god im not wearing a jacket what

"Lauren oh my god!! Why?" He said while holding my arms

I was crying so hard i fell on the floor i couldn't stand up!

Kian sit behind me and hugged me from the back while crying on my back

He said "Dont do this to yourself! Dont do this to me please! "

I turned my back and hugged him so tight i cried on his chest for hours

He told me "can i stay tonight?"

"Please!" I said

When my mom got home i told her if Kian can stay she said "yeah sure"

She looked at me and said "Lauren, why your eyes are red?"

I didnt say anything i didnt know what to say then i said "no theyre not mom" and laugh

I got up and goes to my room

Kian is sitting in my bed, when i walked in he told me "Lauren we need to talk"

"okay"

I sit in front of him

"What do you feel?"

"Nothing.."

"Lauren tell me what do you feel?"

I took a deep breath and said

"okay i'll tell you!! I feel worthless hopeless stupid i feel like everybody hates me, i do everything bad! Im not good in anything! I suck at everything! Im ugly im fat nobody likes me! I try so hard to get people to like me but they dont! Nobody will care if i died"

Im crying, shaking

Kian hold my hands "no no no thats all lies Lauren! Nobody hates you! Youre not fat! You are beautiful!

If you killed yourself tonight i dont know how will i live! Thank god i got here" he is crying too

He hugged me and whisper in my ears "I Love You..... Im In Love With You Lauren"

Kian loves me... He care about me!

He care! He really care !

I dont believe it.. There is someone who care

I looked in his eyes and said "I love you kian"

He pull of my jacket and kissed my cuts and told me "promise me you will never cut again?"

I looked at him for a while .....

"I promise" i almost whisper

He lean into me... His lips touched my lips!

I swear to god this is the best thing happened in my life !

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Im sorry this is a short chapter

These two days i was

so depressed

i'll upload a longer chapter i promise !

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