Surrender Your Heart (Erwin Smith X Reader)

1-Two Different Girls

Your chest was about to explode, your heart furiously pounding. Your knees were shaking. You decided to sit down hoping to get calmer. It did not work. You had four pairs of men's eyes staring nervously at you. In some other occasion you wouldn't have minded some male attention, but this was different.

"(Y/N), what was that 'it-cannot-wait' thing you wanted to tell us?" asked the oldest one, Darius Zackly. You could tell he was impatient.

In that moment you started to regret having reunited all four of them, the leaders of the Military Divisions.

"I have no time to waste, I have work to do" said the black-haired one, Nile Dok.

There was no way back. You were about to confess.

You had to. You had been waiting to say this for years...

And, now, the time had come.

"I have valuable information about the titans, among others. I hope you will be kind enough to listen to the whole thing, it is quite long" you said trying to look confident.

"Then I shall get a chair" said the blond one, Erwin Smith, with a glow of interest coming through his eyes.

"And I shall get another drink" you smiled at the attempt of Dot Pixis to lessen the tension of the situation.

"I may need one too, Pixis" you said, smiling. You breathed deeply and organized your thoughts. As soon as Pixis arrived with two bottles of cheap whiskey you started to talk.

"Well, let's get started with this, shall we?"

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You were raised in one of the most prosperous and wealthy neighborhoods inside Wall Sina. You considered yourself a very lucky person.

Your past was something that now seemed very far away. The expensive clothes, the top-quality and abundant food and the parties were able to hush all your memories.

You tried to imagine yourself some time ago. Impossible. There are two completely different girls: who you are and who you used to be.

When you were 13 you were adopted by a loving and caring family and since then your life changed completely.

At first, it was easy to quiet all the pain by thinking "This is my life now. I can pretend nothing ever happened. I have a second chance now", but with the passing of the years, you started to realize that something about those statements just did not seem right. Your conscience was not tranquil. You had to do something, but you did not know how or when.

Someone knocks at the door and all these thoughts suddenly disappear. You open with a bright smile. It's him. You are so happy to see him again. You did not expect a visit from him.

"Erwin! You came back safe!" you jump and hug him. Gosh he is so tall.

"(Y/N)...I'm happy to see you as well. Is your father here?"

"Not yet, he went to a meeting, but he will be here anytime soon. Want some tea?"

"I would never say no to your tea" he answers politely. When you come back from the kitchen you give him the tea and ask him:

"So...how's the outside world?" you curiously stare at him as he sips his tea in delight.

"It's funny you asked me that" he answers and you giggle nervously "Don't you really remember anything about it?" he asks examining your reactions.

"Erwin...It happened long ago, I was a child, I don't remember it well, and I don't want to talk about it" you say sharply and suddenly you change your expression to a warmer one "But I really want to know how your expedition went."

"Um, well..." he is interrupted by the door that is suddenly opened by a chubby and smiling man.

Your dad has arrived. You come forward and hug him tightly. He shakes Erwin's hand.

"I'm going to let you guys have your boring business talk alone" you say leaving the room.

Before Erwin and your dad start discussing about the current situation of the Military and politics in general your dad watches you leave and says unthinkingly:

"What a lovely lady she has become, eh, Erwin?"

Erwin had never thought about it. You were just a 13-year-old child when you met him, but time had passed and now you had become a woman.

He blushes while realizing that fact.

"Quite lovely, you will struggle a lot with her" Erwin replies. Your dad shakes his hands as saying: 'don't make me think about it'.

"Let's get down to business."

And while they speak, Erwin can't avoid being thinking about you at a deeper and underlying level of his psyche. '(Y/N) has surely changed a lot. She is not that lost child anymore' his mind keeps on imagining. He tries to avoid all these inappropriate thoughts during the conversation, but he can't resist.

And some part of him doesn't want to resist. 

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AN: Hey, my dearest readers! What do you think so far? I know there are a lot of questions you might have, but they will be answered in the following chapters. I hope you liked it.