The Path To Heaven Runs Through Miles Of Clouded Hell

Part 14

Oh my gooood!!!!! I'm sooo sorry!!! I've been so busy with school!!! I had dinner show for choir and I had to stay after school from 2-7pm and the other day from 12-7pm so I've had a lot of stress and I still have more dinner show nights!!! I haven't had a good night sleep in almost two weeks!!! I've been going to sleep late because I've been rushing through my homework because of dinner show rehearsals and stuff!!! I haven't had time to update at all so I deeply apologize I really am so sorry!!! I'll try to update my story more and more!!! Thanks to you who are not leaving me alone like everyone else!!!! I love you all!!! Has it been almost a month since my last update?

3 months later
Me and Daniel are still together but he's been distant these past 3 weeks and I don't know why. I've been trying to get him to show love for me and he does but not like he used to. now he's kinda rude and doesn't care for me.
Daniel got home from dans house. "hey Daniel wanna go out for dinner? It's on me"
"Nah just make me something to eat and ill be fine I don't feel like going out tonight"
"You sure?"
"That's what I said right?"
"Okay" I went to go make him food. I finished cooking and I went into the living to give him his food.
"Here you go"
"Thanks! I'm gonna send you out with rich tomorrow"
"Why? where are you going?"
"Does it matter where I'm going? I called rich and he's gonna take you somewhere special"
"Sorry"
I went up to my room. god he's a real jerk now. I remember when he used to be the sweetest guy and now he's a complete jerk.
I went to sleep. I woke at around 9 and Daniel was already gone to only god knows where. great I'm alone as always. I got ready and I heard a knock on the door. I answered it.
"Hey rich!"
"Hey Aja! you ready?"
"Yeah, do you know what's gotten into Daniel lately? he's being a real jerk! you know why?"
"Nah if I knew I would tell you" we went to the zoo.
"So are you guys getting married anytime soon?"
"What?"
"I saw him at the jewelry store the other day, he said the ring was for the love of his life"
"No he hasn't mentioned anything about it. maybe that's why he's being a jerk. maybe he's nervous that ill find out that he's gonna propose"
"Yeah. anyway look at those giraffes!"
"They're so cute!"
We spent the whole day at the zoo. I got home at around 9.
"Are you sure it's gonna be okay with Daniel that i'm dropping you off before 12?"
"I'm sure it's fine, thanks for today it was fun!"
"No problem goodnight"
"Night"
I walked into the house and it was silent. I called out for Daniel. I can't find him anywhere. I walked up to our room and opened the door.
I bursted into tears and ran out. I called dan. I have no idea why but I did.
"Hello?"
"Dan! please come pick me up!"
"What's wrong? where are you?"
"Daniels house!"
"Ill be right there"
After a few minutes dan finally arrived. I ran up to him in tears and hugged him.
"What's wrong?"
"Daniels been cheating on me!"
"I'm so sorry! where is he?!"
"Upstairs"
"I'm gonna kill him for hurting you like this!"
"No dan lets just go!"
We went back to his house.
"Can you tell me what you saw?"
"He was in bed with another girl! she had a wedding ring on! that's what rich told me! I though the loved me!"
"I thought he did too! I'm so sorry for letting you go with him!"
"It's not your fault" once I calmed down I let go of dan. the guys were asleep so we were pretty much alone.
"I'm sorry I called you, I don't even know why I called you if we're not together. I just didn't know who else to call I have no family and dowel lives in LA. rich is probably already home so I didn't want to bother him"
"I still love you"
"I've heard that many times before. I'm just not love able, look at all the times I've tried to be with you and we've failed. look at me and Daniel, I tried it twice and look what happened. Ben is nice but I don't love him like I love y-" I shut myself up.
"Like you love who?"
"Just forget about it"
"No I want to know" I saw my ring on the table. I picked it up and put it on. I grabbed his hand and looked into his eyes.
"You" I said quietly.
He hugged me again. "you love me!"
"I never stopped"
"Neither did I! I know I screwed up and I made it seem like I didn't love you but your my life. these past 3 months have been hell for me! I wrote a song while you were gone, you wanna hear it?"
I smiled "I'd love to"
He picked up his guitar and started singing.
"Ever since I could remember Everything inside of me
Just wanted to fit in oh oh oh
I was never one for pretenders
And everything I tried to be
Just wouldn't settle in oh oh oh
If I told you what I was
Would you turn your back on me
And if I seem dangerous
Would you be scared
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me.
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me
I'm taking a stand to escape
What's inside me
A monster a monster
I've turned into a monster
A monster a monster
And it keeps getting stronger"
"It's not finished yet but ill finish it for you"
"It's beautiful!"
"Like you"
He blushed and so did I. I stared into his beautiful eyes for I don't know how long. Our faces slowly got closer and closer. finally when were about to kiss Ben comes running down the stairs probably for his mid-night 'snack' his favorite ice cream Dulce De Leche.
Me and dan quickly turned opposite ways.
"Aja! what are you doing here? and where's Daniel?" I haven't seen him in the longest time!" What's Ben talking about? he's been coming over here for the past month! wait no he was probably with his whore!
I start to cry again. "did I say something wrong?"
"No! your fine Daniels been cheating on me for I don't know how long. he already proposed to that slut"
He came up to me and hugged me.
"I'm so sorry Aja I had no idea that Daniel was capable of doing this to you"
"Me neither but it's done so I have to get over it"
"Do you still love him?"
"Of course I do!"
Dan put his hand on my face and slowly turned my face to him.
"So you did love him?"
"Of course! why do you think I agreed to buy a house together!"
"I thought you were trying to get back at me!"
"No! I didn't want to be with him because it was going to remind me of you but then he told me he was going to be the best thing that's ever happened to me and I was stupid enough to believe him, I trusted him! he was the only thing that I had left! and now look! I have no home! I live in a tour bus! I have no family! The only friends I have are the guys I have to live with while I'm on the road! I have nothing left"
Ben grabbed my hand.
"I'm your family, I think of you as a sister, I mean under the fact that I really like you but I know it's never going to happen, but your still my sister"
I hugged Ben. "I love you Ben! I'm sorry for everything I've done to hurt any of you! I know I screwed up with all of you! I kissed Ryan! it was his fault though, I kissed you Ben! I was going to have your baby!, Wayne's probably the only one I haven't slept with or screwed up his life, and I was going to have your baby dan, I've left you and you've left me only god knows how many times! our relationship is a roller coaster. we have our ups and downs but we always end up together.Even when we're not together, I'm still thinking of you, I still have feelings for you, I still think of you as the only guy ill ever love with all my heart! Ive never felt the same way with anyone else as I feel with you, you really are the best thing that's ever happened to me!"
"I love you Aja!"
"I know you do!" I turned around and faced Ben. "Ben I'm sorry your the sweetest guy ever! I really want you to know that. your crazy as hell but you understand things, even when your pissed off your the sweetest guy, I love that about you! you never give up and your stubborn as hell! but please under stand that I can't be with you, it's not because I think you ugly or I don't like you, that's not it at all! I think your really handsome and I like you a lot! but only as a friend, there's someone great out there for you but it's not me"
"I know, I'm sorry for getting you pregnant when you didn't love me and I'm sorry for kissing you all those times"
"Don't worry about it, I'm sorry for everything I've done to you"
"Just Forget about it"
"Thanks"
I turned to dan.
"Aja?"
"What?"
"Do you still love me?"
I nodded. "thank you"
"For what? all I've done is make your life miserable"
"That's not true! you've gotten me through the worst parts of my life! you got me out of drugs and I'm not an alcoholic thanks to you, you've been there for me after all those times I've hurt you in everyway possible, you've done anything but ruin my life, Daniel is stupid to let you go. if I was a great guy like Daniel I would never cheat on you! I would cherish you everyday of my life when Id wake up and see your beautiful face in front of mine with that gorgeous smile of yours I would have to be stupid to let you go"
"I was stupid to let you go, if I had another chance to start over I would take it but I don't think you want to be with me anymore"
"Of course I still want to be with you! why would you say that?"
"Well all but one of your best friends have already knocked me up, your to good a guy for me to be with"
"I don't care how many times you've been knocked up! I love you! without you I'm nothing"
"Do you still love me?"
"Of course! I never stopped! the reason I let you go is because I saw you didn't want to be hurt by me anymore"
"Thank you for never letting me go" I hugged him as tightly as I could.
I let him go and wiped my tears away.
"Ben aren't you going to get your ice cream?"
"Oh yeah ill leave you two alone"
I heard slow footsteps coming down the stairs.
"What's all the chattering about! were trying to sleep!"
Wayne and Ryan both came down rubbing their eyes.
"Aja! I haven't seen you in like 2 or 3 months! how are you and where's Daniel? I haven't seen him either"
I told them what happened.
"So let me get this straight, you and dan are back together and Daniel is getting married to a whore?"
"Yes!"
"Okay well to tonight has been quite a crazy night for you guys so why don't we all go to bed!"
I hugged dan once again.
"You wanna sleep with me?"
"Can I sleep down here for tonight?"
"Of course"
I couldn't sleep in the guest bedroom because Ryan's sleeping in there for a few days. Imagine Dragons go back on tour next week so Ryan's staying here so they can all leave together and they're using Daniels room as a repair room for their instruments.
They all went up to their rooms and I slept on the couch. I'm surprised Daniel hasn't come to look for me but why should I care he's nothing mine. he's just one of dans friends.
Sorry if this one was boring. I know what your probably thinking. Aja's going to be with Wayne and then she's going to stay with dan for good. but you decide if she should give Wayne a chance or if she should just stay with dan for good. you decide. thank you all for reading I think there will be a couple more chapters but Im not sure how many. ill see what you guys say about the next chapter. any way I love you bye ❤E