It was the day of the dance comp. I knew that I would fail, but Jimin gave me positivity that I would do well no matter what.
Just like how you did.
With out you, I knew that I couldn't do it.
Even when I think of you, it made me worse and more anxious.
I walked onto the stage with Jimin, and started.
I thought I was doing fine, until I saw you in the audience.
Why are you here? You're gonna make everything worse.
We made short eye contact, then I looked away immediately.
I continued the dance with Jimin, but then I slipped. And everything went black.
I couldn't feel anything except for the pain I felt in my chest area.
I couldn't hear much either. All I heard was indistinct chattering from the audience and the last thing I could hear was Jimin asking a bunch of questions and yelling out for someone to call the ambulance.
There was no use of calling the ambulance. I didn't want him to anyway.
I'm not a person worth saving.
I just wanted to die at this moment. Even if it would be so painful. I wouldn't care. Because I would only feel it for a bit. Then nothing.
There was no reason to live anymore.
What's good of living if there is no one there for you? No one who loves you. No one who actually cares.
You loved me. I loved you. But you just wouldn't listen to me when you saw what happened.
You just didn't listen and now I'm laying on the cold floor helpless and in pain.
Just let me die already.
