A Christmas Wish - NAMJOON FF

Chapter 2- Light Bulb

chapter 2-
I knew he had absolutely no idea where he was going so I took the responsibility of guiding him around the small village, it was decorated spectacularly with a spectrum of coloured lights and snow coated the dainty houses like the top coating of a beautiful cake. He talked a lot considering we'd only just met, he was the first guy I'd ever talked to that was so open with me upon our first meeting and I kind of enjoyed spending time with him, but I was still apprehensive because I still didn't know the guy all that well and was certainly not in the position to dive into anything serious again.

After about an hour of just walking around and talking to one another we began to head back to the train stop, he had confessed that he'd gotten off at this stop just to talk to me and that he honestly had no clue where he was going, I laughed and playfully called him an idiot as I nudged his shoulder. Since it was pretty late at night at this stage the trains were becoming less frequent so we decided to sit down on a wooden bench by the tracks to wait together.

It was silent for a little while as we just admired the idyllic scene before us, then he said "So why is someone like you spending the entire Christmas weekend completely alone huh? Don't you have some family? Maybe even someone you love?" You look at him and can't help but laugh at what he'd just said "that's a good one!" I pause for a moment as he looks at me blankly, presumably waiting for a reason, then I sigh and just say "Look, I've never loved anyone, or anything for that matter. I don't know what that feels like. Christmas is supposed to be about spreading joy and love, but, how can I if I don't even know the meaning of the word? I'd much rather just stay home, run a hot bubble bath and put my favourite playlist on, now that's my idea of a holly jolly Christmas." You smile to yourself as you look out towards the night sky. He looks down at his feet and quietly responds "sounds kinda lonely to me".

I turned my head to face him and say " I've been alone my entire life." I hesitate before what I say next as I'd actually never told anyone before "I was an orphan if you must know, I spent every Christmas with an orange in my stocking and no such thing as a Santa to come save me once a year. I'm used to being on my own, it's the way I've been brought up to be." I pause for a second then ask " so what about you mr. Claus? Why do you find this season so intriguing huh?" He lightly scoffs and smiles at the ground before looking up at me "Well its my favourite time of the year! I work a lot so I don't really get to spend as much time with my family as I'd like to, this is really the only time we get to see one another. Then last month my mom called and told me how my grandmas been having some health issues and that this may be her last Christmas with us so I want to make it count. The only annoying thing about seeing my family is that every time I walk through the door they bombard me with the same old questions like 'joonie, did you bring anyone special this year? oh joon you should really think about settling down soon, you're not getting any younger and we want to see some grandkids running round here soon!'

He laughs a little and looks over at me as I laugh at his statement, then he goes off on a tangent and starts saying things like "I know I could meet someone if I really tried but I work constantly and it'd be an injustice to her you know?" I just nod passively, I had kinda zoned out halfway through the conversation but then he suddenly turns his entire body around towards me and looks at me rather intensely, earning a questionable expression back from me "what's that look for?" I ask and he smiles at me, I notice a dimple on his cheek and thought it was quite a cute feature to have on a man, "I think I may have an idea."