A Christmas Wish - NAMJOON FF

Chapter 6- Catching Feelings..

chapter 6-
N A M J O O N
I had her in my arms, I finally had the chance to kiss her. I'd wanted to do it since the night I saw her on that train two days ago. I had this strange feeling she wanted it too, even if she didn't want to admit it to herself. Then as I leant in, I heard someone say her name and she froze, she got up immediately and patted down her clothing, "Tae! What are you doing here?" I was confused but I decided to stay silent, "I could ask you the same question. I thought you said we were on a break? That you needed space? It sure doesn't look like there's too much space between you and this random dude."

I didn't like him instantaneously, I intertwined my fingers with y/n's and said to him "This 'random dude' is her fiancée if you must know. And you are?" A look of confusion and pain spread across his face, then it turned to one of anger, "y/n can I talk to you? In private." His eyes burned into me as he spoke the ending of his sentence, I glare back at him and go to approach him but her hand stops me, she places it delicately on my chest and looks into my eyes, I was weak for her, I couldn't deny that.

She looked up at me with those beautiful doe eyes and whispered "I'll be back soon. I promise. Wait for me?" I let out a heavy sigh and nod, making my way over to the cashier desk to talk to Daisy as I watched them from afar. Daisy was an old high school friend of mine. We'd dated for a while in college but I didn't see it going anywhere so I ended things, although we were still always good friends and I could talk to her about almost anything, almost.

As I sat on a stool and leant on the counter I said to her "what do you think they're talking about? Who is that guy? Do you think she likes him?" Daisy laughs at me and I look at her seriously "what?" I ask in a huff, "you'd swear you guys just started dating. You sound like you're in second grade. He's probably an old ghost she wants to forget about, look at her face. She dosent wanna be there. I'm almost positive she'd much rather be skating with you." I smile at her for trying to reassure me, though I couldn't shake the fact that she may like him, and she may want to be with him. I couldn't have that for some reason. Even though i had no control over it I couldn't help it.

I knew I couldn't have her but I didn't want anyone else to either. Was I being selfish? Or just outright jealous? I seen her trying to walk away and he grabbed her arm, once things got physical I couldn't just sit and watch so I went over to break it up and leave. I smacked his hand away from her and got up in his personal space "what do you think you're doing?! Don't touch what doesn't belong to you." I say angrily he glares at me and says "Listen man it's none of your business so just stay out of i-" "it is my business if it considers her is that clear? Now I suggest you keep your distance from us and delete her number off your phone. Move on pal, because clearly she has" she looks at me speechless and I clasp her hand leading her out of the building and heading back to the cabin.

I walked in front of her in silence, I heard her footsteps scrunching in the snow so I knew she was close by. Then a few moments later the footsteps stopped, I turned around to see her standing there looking at me with a pout on her face, she looked so cute but I had to keep my guard up, this weekend isn't real. "What's wrong?" I ask as she stares at the snow..

Y/N
I couldn't wrap my head around what had just occurred. Tae just happened to walk in and see me with another guy, just my luck. We talked and he told me that he really loved me and wanted to make things work but, I couldn't stop staring at Namjoon, with her. He was talking to her so seriously. It worried me. Maybe he liked her. Maybe there was a spark I wasn't aware of. But I told Tae straight up that I didn't desire to be with him and I didn't envision myself growing old with him because a relationship needs love and that was something I just didn't feel for him. He couldn't understand it. I didn't expect him to. I got up to walk out because it would just be better that way.

Cutting off contact from him would be the best decision for me. Then he tried to stop me from going and Joon bolted down to break it up. I was genuinely speechless. He said some things that surprised me. On the way back to the cabin I reflected over everything that had happened and I just had to ask him. I stopped in my tracks and I said "why did you tell Tae to not touch what doesn't belong to him? Were you insinuating that I belonged to you?" He looks at me up and down before shrugging "not particularly, it's all for the act remember?" That hurt me a little. I looked down at the snow and said "Right..it's all an act." Then I walked past him and continued the journey back home. Just before we got to the house Joon said "Hey y/n!" I turned around "Yeah?" "Let's build a snowman!" I had to laugh. He's such a little kid. A cute one at that. "Nah I'm good" I continued to walk towards the house, "Aw come on you spoil sport!" I turned around and smirked "Fine."

I waddle over to him and we begin to roll the snow into a gigantic sphere and we place a small one on top. I find a few small rocks and pop them in as his eyes, then I realise we didn't have a nose. We were practically at the cabin at this point so I said "Wait I'll run in and grab a carrot you stay here!" I'm almost at the steps then I feel a freezing cold chill run down my back and I shudder, I turn around and see Namjoon forming small snowballs and throwing them at me, I purse my lips together and say "Oh no you did no-" He threw another one at me and I managed to dodge it, I grab some snow from beneath my feet and fling it at him, hitting him right on the cheek.

I burst into laughter and he runs after me. I try to run away but he grasps his arms around my waist from behind and lifts me into the air, I'm still laughing uncontrollably at this stage, I hit his hand playfully and say "Put me down idiot!" He giggles and his eyes look like they were smiling with him, I turn around to face him and had my hands on his arms still, we were silent for a moment as we just admired one another's features, white puffs of smoke escaping our mouths and eloping with one another, it was quite, intimate I guess you could say.

I broke the gaze and tapped his arm "We should probably go inside. It's pretty cold out here!" I laugh lightly, trying to ignore the sexual tension between the both of us. Once we get inside the cabin is dimly lit, everyone must be asleep. I quietly make my way up the stairs and into our bedroom. I slip into something more comfortable, an oversized hoodie and some basic shorts with my favourite fluffy bunny socks. Namjoon comes in as I'm slipping on the second sock and he goes straight to the bathroom without saying anything. I turn on my bedside lamp and turn out the main light, slipping in under the covers and popping on my circular reading glasses, I continued reading my book I had on the train and a few minutes later joon came out of the bathroom with grey sweatpants and no shirt on.

He goes to get into the bed and I say "What do you think you're doing? You're not sleeping beside me like that. No way. You can sleep on the floor Romeo." I grin at him and I throw a pillow at his stomach. He catches it and says pleadingly "Aww come on, what do I have to do for you to let me sleep in the bed?" I think to myself what I could get him to do, then I ask "First of all our a shirt on. Second of all...why did your little brother call you Mon? I've been trying to make sense of it but I just can't. Namjoon...Mon. It doesn't fit! If you tell me that then you can have that side of the bed." Namjoon shakes his head repeatedly and he puts on a plain grey t-shirt "Nope! No way. Floor it is." He goes to sit down but I cut in "Wait!" I look at him with puppy eyes "Please?" He lets out a deep sigh and sits on the side of the bed. "Promise not to laugh?" He raises his eyebrow at you, "Pinky promise."

You smile at him kneeling beside him on top of the soft sheets. "Well, I got the nickname in high school. That's the shortened version. It just kinda stuck. Guys from school still call me it and it's so embarrassing." I smiled at him and pleaded "Please tell me, come on, please?" I raise my eyebrow and pout my lips, making him give in and my eyes lit up once I knew he was going to tell me "Rap Monster. It stood for Rap Monster." He looks down shyly at the carpet.

I look at him and purse my lips, trying to contain my laughter but I just couldn't manage to hold it, I burst into a fit of laughter as I fell back on the bad, clutching my stomach because it began to tickle. I try to control my breathing and say "Rap Monster? Out of all things in this world you chose RAP MONSTER?! I knew you were an idiot!"

He turns around and pins my arms down on the bed above my head, I gasp at his sudden movement and look into his eyes, swallowing the saliva building in my throat, waiting for him to say something, anything. "You promised not to laugh. I should really punish you for that. But I'll let it slide, for now. Let's go to sleep." He gets off me and slides in under the covers, I lay there for a moment, trying to steady my heart rate. Then I slowly sit up and crawl back under the sheets again, place my glasses on the side table and then turn out my lamp. Next thing I knew within a matter of minutes I had fallen fast asleep..