His Queen

3.

"He kills, he destroys"

She was tired of everyone. She just wanted to yell and shout at them that they don't know about him. Then there's this little doubt in her head that says, Do I really know him? His blue eyes flash in her mind, and that sweet smile he used to give her. That thought quickly fades. Yes I do.

"Come on Amelia let's do something fun today, it's Friday!" Liv said and walked in front of her. Amelia was looking for him but couldn't find him anywhere, her heart sink at not seeing him.

"I don't want to Liv" She wraps her books she have in her arms tighter and walked towards the front doors. School just finish and she was hoping to see a certain pair of blue eyes.

"It's Friday! It's a day to have fun" Liv ran to catch up with her cousin. "Not a day to stay home and read books"

"It is a perfect day to do that and every day" She replied and head to her blue car that she saved for so many years. Her hair flew with the wind. She lost all her hair ties, so she had to deal with her hair getting on her face, which annoys her. Liv was going to say something when her boyfriend, Randy called for her.

"I see you later this isn't over yet" Amelia smiled at her cousin who is running to her boyfriend. Her heart broke that she couldn't have that to who she loves. She turns her head to see blue eyes looking straight at her with admiration. In a instant that one moment of emotion went away as fast as she seen it. He looked at her for another second then he turn and walked to a car that seemed to be waiting for him.

She signs and then grab her keys to unlock her car. She went home, ate, showered and changed to her comfy penguin pajamas. For the rest of the night she read a new book she got from the mail named Shatter me by Tahereh Mafi. She doesn't buy things from the internet only likes to get the full experience and go to the store to get her things. Sometimes she gets things like books, flowers, candy, and stuff animals that she so much loves sent to her. There is never a name on it just a little quote.

She always hope it's him.

***
She sees, she rebuilds

He wants to throw the table in his room to the wall. He is angry, he is outrage, he is damage with pain. There was so much control he had to do, so he wouldn't march over to her to kiss her and hold her when he saw her in the school parking lot. Looking at him with her beautiful eyes he loves. Her hair that was blowing behind her that he loved to played with his figures. He wants her, but can't have her.

Why I thought to go to the same school as her was a good idea?

Oh yeah because my stupid self still wanted to look at her, even if it's a glance.

"Sir" Rowy snaps him out of his thoughts and looks over to where Rowy is standing at the door. He looked away from the look in Rowy's eyes, Pity. He hated that emotion.

"Yes" He kicked some clothes that were on his floor then sat on his bed staring at the blank black wall. His whole room is Black and Gray. He doesn't want no color in his room. Expect for a couple of things that were given to him and had no heart to throw away.

"Want do you want for dinner?"

"I don't want anything" He lay down on his bed and closed his eyes. He knew he was going to hear that talk again.

"Sir, you need to eat"

"I'm not hungry" He looks at Rowy who has a concern look on his face. "I ate earlier"

"A banana" Rowy gave him a stern look.

"Better then nothing" He replied and almost laughed at the look Rowy gave.
"Really Rowy I'm not hungry" He haven't been really hungry in a long time, but eats to make Rowy have less to worry about him.

He shouldn't care about me.

"She wouldn't want this" He faced his ceiling and closed his eyes shut tightly. Rowy always brings her up when he's like this, he hates it but it damn works. He knows it's true, she wouldn't want him to be like this and not eating.

"I know Rowy, I know" He said so low and so soft, the whole went into complete silence after that. "You should go and help your wife Rowy, I be ok here alone."

Rowy wife Val is 5 months pregnant with their second child. Their first is a girl named Aria she is a wonderful sweet 3 year old. With black hair that matches her father's and blue with green eyes that are like her mother's. He met Val couple of times and only met Aria once. They were both wonderful, it was to bad he can't met them anymore. It's to dangerous.

"No sir" Rowy replied back. "Val told me she hit my head if I come home today knowing you be home alone." He wanted to smile at that.

"Do you really have to keep calling me sir?" He always feel so old when he is called sir. He is only 23 and feels that is still very young. He knows Rowy have to call him that when people are around, but there is no one here expect them.

"Yes Sir" He can already imagine Rowy smirking at him. He wanted to laugh, but couldn't. It been so long since he smiled and laugh freely. He misses everything that he had before, he wish he can go back and grab a hold of it all over again. To never let go and keep everything close to him.

"While your thinking in your dark cloud, I'm going to make food and your doing to eat it or I will call Val and make her give you a speech" Rowy walked out without closing the door and he looked at the door with a glare.

He looks up at the ceiling and signs.

He misses her.