I'm with the Band

I'm with the band chapter ten

Chapter 10

" Can I tell you a secret?" I whisper to Maddi. We're laying on her top bunk, the rest of the room quietly sleeping. I can still feel Zack's lips on mine, and I can't stop thinking about it. Zack was right too, that was the best performance I've ever done in my life.

Maddi gives me a look. " Of course you can, dummy," Maddi sighs, exasperated. Although Maddi has had a boyfriend before, she's never had her first kiss, that I know of anyways. I wonder if that makes Zack and I a couple. Sure it would have to be a secret, but the idea of even having a boyfriend is exhilarating. Especially if that boyfriend is a hot lead guitarist for the most popular boy band in America.

" Ok," I take a deep breath.

" God Sophie, just tell me already," Maddi demands.

" I had my first kiss today right before the show," I blurt out. Maddi's eyes go wide. I feel like an excited sixth grader now. God knows what would happen if I started squealing and jumping around.

" What?! With who? Why didn't you tell me sooner!" Maddi yell-whispers. I chuckle a bit.

" With Zack," I say proudly. I doubt Zack told any of his band mates. Maddi looks so stunned, almost not believing me.

" Yeah right," she states flatly, " I bet it was Tyler and you're just making that up. You never even told me you liked Zack!"

" Well, I guess I really didn't know what I thought of him until he told me he liked me and then kissed me!" I was only a little mad that she didn't believe me, feel happy for me, or wonder what it was like.

" Are we even talking about the same Zack?" Maddi grumbles. I'm starting to regret confiding in her, because I know for certain I couldn't trust Charlie or Caroline, even my Gran, with this kind of information. Maddi was the only one I could turn to, besides Paige.

" Yes, the band Zack," I snap back. Maddi narrows her eyes.

" Why would he go for you?" she asks skeptically.

" Why can't you just be happy for me?" I say angrily.

" Because it's ridiculous! Even if I did believe you, band members are off limits. Boys are, for a matter of fact!" Maddi says loudly. I can sense a hint of betrayal in her voice. Someone stirs, and I sit up, pulling Maddi to the RV's living room, shutting the bunk's doors behind us.

" Maddi, I will never ditch you for a boy, ever," I promise sincerely.

" Who ever said you were the one ditching me!"

" Are you saying we aren't friends anymore?"

" Maybe. But what about this!" Maddi reaches into her pant pocket and pulls out a sheet of crumpled up paper. I immediately feel bad as she waves it in my face.

It's this contract Maddi and I made shortly after she broke up with her then-boyfriend. It said we would never date a guy while on tour because they were too distracting. Both of our signatures were at the bottom in bright gel pen. I frown.

" Maybe it's time to move on," I state. Maddi sighs exasperated.

" The world always has to revolve around you Sophia! Anything you say goes, especially ever since you got the lead job!"

" That's not true, you're not being fair!" I yell as loudly as I dare.

" Oh, I'M not the one being fair?" Maddi half screams. I wrench the contract from her hands and rip it in two, letting the pieces float down to the ground. Maddi gasps. I stand shocked at what I had done. That piece of paper was basically our entire friendship.

" You bitch!" Maddi yells, tears in her eyes.

" Maddi I-"

" Shut up Sophia, just SHUT. UP! I thought we were friends, but I guess I was wrong. So, so, so wrong. We're over," Maddi cries and storms back to bed, slamming the sliding door behind her, waking everyone up I'm sure.

" Maddi!" I call desperately after her, but know it's no use. I've ruined everything. I don't go after her.

I slide down to the floor and bury my face in my knees, sobbing quietly. I went from feeling like a million bucks to feeling like a lonely little ant. What had I done?

I find myself on the floor next to the bedroom door the next morning. Thankfully, no one else is up yet. I wonder how I got there. Then, it comes crashing back at me like a tidal wave. Zack's lips and mine crashing together, my fight with Maddi.

" Oh no," I whisper to myself. " No, no, no, no, no." Maddi and I were over. This couldn't be real, yet, it was. All because I kissed Zack.

Zack, poor Zack. Should I break up with him, since I guess we're in some sort of relationship. No, I decide. Zack's the only one I got now.  The only one. I've never felt so alone.

I feel utterly exhausted, the shows beginning to take their taxing toll on my small body.

But right now, how can I really continue to go on?