Thoughts

Saturday, December 22, 2018

I'm gonna delete myself

Why?

BECAUSE FUCK LIFE

Ranting time with (insert name here)

Yo yo I'm back and I still want to kill myself

Why?

Why you must ask because my feelings just had to start feeling jsbdjdbfb

It just had to go and fall for a dude, and have a massive crush on him sjbdjebdjd

A guy who I couldn't even talk to last school year but yet still developed feelings and now it's even worse cause I like him even more

I now have talked to him this year and we are really good friends

This is good and happy, right?

W R O N G!

VERY MUCH WRONG

You know why welp I'll tell you why

BITCH GOT A GIRLFRIEND

F U C K M E

K I L L M E P L E A S E

I just hadddd to develop feelings for a guy who is taken and now we are really good friends and I like him even more now and I can't stop these freakin feelings from feelings cause that's their fucking job

I've never have felt like this way towards someone

Like yeah sure I've had crushes before everyone does but T H I S is much different my dudes

I literally can't stop thinking about him, every thought is about him like I just can't I think about him so much I even dream about him and it's not just one dream BUT MULTIPLE

HE WONT GET OUT OF MY HEAD

He makes me feels so fucking happy and alive like bruhs STOB-

BTS - Love Is Not Over, is playing right now BISH IS LOWKEY WRONG IF HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND ILL JUST CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP WHILE LISTENING to 7 ANGELS SING TO ME ABOUT LOVE THAT I DONT HAVE SJBSJSBDJDJ

-He makes everything that was bad that day absolutely amazing, my feelings for him don't seem to go away fuck they keep growing

And it doesn't help that I talk to him everyday  and we text a lot ajbdjebjf

Which makes me so happy because we are the same sense of humor, same taste of music, we can talk or text a lot (it could be better but we just started talking recently) we have like the same group of friends but not at the same time lol

He also ask to like FaceTime AND OH BOI DID I ALMOST DIE WHEN HE SAID THAT

The first time we FaceTime for like an hour, it would have been longer but I had to take a shower jsbfjdbdjfbfb

And the second time which was today (December 28, 2018) we FaceTime for like 4 hours so I think we get along pretty good akbdksbdjdb

And I can't help but think maybe this bish likes me too but I know I'm just trying to convince myself so I don't break my small little heart that yearns for him

AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF

ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS LIKES HIM TO SO F U C K M E EVEN MORE

MY FRIENDS MEAN THE ABSOLUTE WORLD TO ME AND SHE HASNT BEEN VERY HAPPY LATELY AND I CANT HELP BUT FEEL AT FAULT

War of Hormones by BTS is playing AND I FEEL THAT BRO LIKE A LOT OF EMOTIONS ARE HAPPENING RIGHT NOW SKBDKEBF

I just want to cry