UNHEALTHY Obsession [ Kim Namjoon Ff] ✔

14💫🌹💫 You, who would do anything💫🌹💫

Namjoon stood there waiting for your answer. Impatiently as he is, he bit down on his lip to prevent himself from shouting or pushing you to answer soon. He kept watching the hestitate in your eyes and posture which made him a little dissapointed, he says sure he know the answer." Its okay-"

"Fine I'll do no matter what you want or ask." You brust inti the silence and made his heart beat increase out iff happines. To be honest that you would do anything for him but seeing the hestitate he was doubting if you had feelings to him, feeling so that strong that would you make go and do eveything, follow his lead. Namjoon smiled wide and pulled you onto his embrace." Thank you. I really need you to help me."

Was he sincere with you? Was he honestly that happy or was it again only his act?" What do you want me to do?" You asks right away when he pulls away." Come here and take a look." He says walking to his desk and taking a seat in his chair. He opens a file on the laptop and looks at you waiting to come over.

You followed and stood beside him ready to listen to what he have to say. Your eyes shift to the screen of the laptop. The names of the victims stood there with the time when they have died, how and where. It was always the same area. Not far away from Yunas place. Coincidence? Ha no.

"So?" You asked moving your eyes at his confused what he wants." Help me to catch the murder." He brust put and took you put the guard. Your eyes winded looking at him in shock. That you was not special or even didnt meant nothing to him, you was aware of it but to ask you to put your life in danger only because he wants to get justice for his death girlfriend. That was too much even for you.

"What?" You stood straight up still looking at him shocked." I know it sounds absurd-"

"Oh yes you got it right Sir. It sounds absurd." You nood slowy feeling the anger crawling through your body up, and a pain in your heart again." I know but I will always by your side and hide myself. I really need you Y/N. Please do me that favor and be the bait." Namjoon saw the fear and anger in your eye waving as you hold your frown gaze at him. He stood up and tried to get a hold in your shoulder thinking positively that he will convince you, but you take a step back not wanting to be touched by him.

"Sir, don't you think you went too far just now? I'm not a fucking toy I'm a human being too. And no matter how much I love you and would do eveything for your happines, you can't expect me to do something like this, do you really not care about me even a little? What if you wont be in right time there? What if I die?" Tears has started to fill your eyes making your sigh blurry but still you saw him a little.

His gaze seemed unbothered as he watched you and listened to you." I feel really sorry that Ms. Lee has died but to play with my own life only to make you happy and find the murder... I wont do it. And you should be ashamed even to had the thought to ask me something like that. I was always here when you needed me, when you was down or just needed to release your manly needs, I was here. I let myself treat like the shit under your shoes, I went through a lot pain but never give up the hope that one day you I'll notice me, never. But seems like I just wasted my time and my Hopes were for nothing. Good night Mr. Kim I hope you will find someone else who is dumb enough to put their life in danger but not me."

Namjoon didn't had the time to say something nor to prevent you from leaving as you run out off his room crying. You had enough, your heart has went through a lot and was shattered many times. Namjoon stepped many times on your heart, he crashed and shattered so often that you really had enough.

You run through the hallway crying not carring at all if someone has seen you." Y/N." You heard Taehyung calling but wouldn't stop at all, you continue running to your room. Once inside you slammed the door behind you and dropped yourself onto the bed crying into the pillow hard.

After some time there was a knock on the door but you wouldn't answer, you needed and want only to be alone." Y/N." Your door went open and Taehyungs deep voice sounds through the cries of yours.

He close the door and walks slowly up to you, sat in the edge of the bed and padded your back that was shacking as you kept crying into the pillow. His heart ached a lot, he didn't wants see you crying, he wished to see your smile that was compare to the sun so bright and heart warming, to hear your laugh sounding in his ears put of happines, bit not to see you this broken.

He lays slowly beside you pulling your up from the pillow he drew you into his embrace and padded your back telling your eveything will be okay soon.

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Namjoon dropped himself onto the matress facing the ceiling, your words echoed still in his head. Did he really not cared even a little about you. Closing his eyes he saw your crying face clearly infront of him. He recalled the words that you used to tell him all over again until he realized how wrong he was and how much pain he really caused to you. You were right, he used you whenrr he felt like that, he did so many things to you not really carring at all, he give you hopes that he also shattered.

He was selfish and didn't have thought what he was doing to others. He never really cared for someone except from Yuna so why did he felt bad now. Why your words kept lingering in his mind.' No matter how much I love you and would die eveything for your happiness.' Namjoon sighs at this words heavy out.

"I went too far." He mumbled and sat up at his bed. He looked over in his room that was silent and empty. Rubbing his face he get up and decide to talk to you. He felt sorry, even when he have thought he wasn't carring for you he did a little. Only a little?

He head downstairs some maids greyed him with somewhat conflicted expression but he just shrugged it off. He was looking for you. Once he was standing infront of your door he doesn't heard something from behind it so he knocked. He knew you must be in there.

No answer. Once again he knocked but again nothing. So he decode to get a look inside and opened slowly the door whispering."Y/N?" His head peeked through the gap.

His eyes widned for a moment as he saw you laying and sleeping in Taehgungs arms. He was hugging you tightly and close to himself as if he protected you from everything and everyone. Namjoon felt dissapointed and angry but also confused. At that view his heart started to ache. Your hands that hugged once him, rested on Taehyungs chest under your cheek, you face seems so peaceful while sleeping soundless.

Namjoons hands turned onto fists feeling the urgency to pull you out off Taehyungs embrace. But why? He don't love you, he don't care so why was this sight for him so frustrated and painful?

Slowly he turned around to make his way out off the room and close the door behind him. A pair of eyes opened and looked at the door. Someone wasn't asleep.

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Sometimes we want just a hug and nothing more. Because the pain is sometimes not to bearable.