All You Did was Save my Life

Is It Really Worth It?

            "Come on Sammy," Gabriel said in a pleading tone, "I'm fine, see?" He spread his arms and smiled widely, but Sam just shook his head.

            "I thought you were dead Gabe," Sam said, his voice still thick from trying, "I thought the baby was dead."

            "But we're not," Gabriel took Sam's hands in his, "Sammy we're fine."

            "Why didn't you tell me what you were going to do?" Sam asked.

            "Your reaction needed to be real," Gabriel said, "If you had known about the plan and your reaction hadn't been convincing then Lucifer would've known it was a trick." Sam looked down at the ground, torn between relief that Gabriel and their baby were alive and anger over being lied to.

            "Come on Sammy," Gabriel pleaded.

            "We should get back to Bobby's," Sam said quietly. He turned and started walking away, but Gabriel didn't follow. He stood there and stared at Sam's retreating back until Sam finally stopped. The taller man turned slightly and held his hand out, waiting until Gabriel had taken it before moving again.

            "Don't do that to me again," Sam said quietly, wrapping his arm around Gabriel's shoulders. They slid into the Impala as Dean started her up and Gabriel cuddled in close to Sam's chest.

            "I won't," Gabriel murmured. They drove back to Singer Salvage in silence, Sam and Gabriel not moving the entire time. When they finally arrived outside Bobby's house, Jo walked out to greet them.

            "Hey," she said, "How are you guys doing?"

            "Alright," Dean nodded, glancing back at his brother and the archangel, "Where's Cas?"

            "Upstairs with Jamie," she replied, "He, uh, he wants to talk to Gabriel." Dean looked back at the angel who was staring at her with wide eyes.

            "Um, alright," Gabriel said and walked past them into the house. He went straight up the stairs and knocked on the door to Cas and Dean's room.

            "Come in," Cas said and Gabriel opened the door.

            "Hey bro," Gabriel said.

            "You're alive then," Cas said, not moving from where he was lying on the bed playing with Jamie.

            "Yeah," Gabriel chuckled, "I figured Dean told you."

            "He did," Cas replied, passing Jamie one of his toys, "I just assumed he or Sam may have killed you for that trick."

            "Well, if I didn't have Sam's cargo onboard I imagine they might have," Gabriel joked.

            "This isn't a joke Gabriel," Cas snapped, "Dean called and told me you faked your own death for Lucifer."

            "Exactly, faked," Gabriel said, "No big deal."

            "It is a big deal!" Cas exclaimed and Jamie began whimpering. Cas' expression softened immediately and he lifted the boy, hushing him as he did.

            "Cas, listen-" Gabriel started.

            "No Gabriel, you listen," Cas said much quieter, "I get that you were trying to help, okay? Believe me, I get it. But do you think I stayed here because I didn't want to help? I think I stay here at Bobby's every time Dean asks because I want to? No, I don't. I want to help. It drives me crazy being here and not being able to do anything except worry."

            "Then why do you stay?" Gabriel asked, "You could leave the boys here with Bobby, Ellen, and Jo and follow Sam and Dean. You could help them on cases.

            "If Dean were asking me to stay here just so I could be safe then I'd sat forget it. I'd ignore him and go on cases. But it's not just me Gabriel. Dean asks me to stay here because if anything happens to him then Ben and Jamie will need someone to take care of them and keep them safe. The same way if something were to happen to Sam, Jesse and that baby would need you." Gabriel looked down at his stomach and didn't reply.

            "Gabriel, I know you want to help," Cas said, "But is it really worth it if you lose your child? Is it really worth it if you and Sam die and you leave Jesse with no parents?"

            "You know," Gabriel said slowly, "For my baby brother who used to have no social skills, you're starting to make a lot of sense kid."