I have a little feeling that this Christmas is going to be worse than the others.
I don't blame you, I know you're doing your best to make everything go well, but deep down you know isn't even worth trying.
Deep down you know that all this is nothing but lies.
I always end up being the bad guy in history because I'm the only one who has his feet firmly on the ground. I'm the only one who doesn't feel the need to demonstrate to everyone that we are the typical "happy family". Sorry to disappoint you but they also know that we aren't .
I keep writing to you without ever saying it because I know it would break your heart and I can't do it.
I miss the Christmases that we .spent there but miss isn't enough because the grandparents separated. Nothing is ever going to return to the same unhappily.
I've never been good at lying about the way I feel, but I'll try hard for you. So I don't have to listen to you complaint . Hear you say that I'm always making movies when it's you who make them. I don't promise that I will, but I will try.
I will try not to spoil Christmas to others since mine is already spoiled.
