Fly Away | Spruceworth 6.2

Chapter 10: Involved

Chapter 10: Involved

~Grant~

       Beep. Beep. Beep.

       That repetitive sound was the first thing I heard and it was starting to annoy me so I slowly opened my eyes. It took some time, for some reason, for my sight to focus and when it did, I noticed I was in a hospital room.

       Three other people were in the room with me; my mom, my step-dad Lawrence, and Shaw.

       I furrowed my eyebrows. "What happened? Why am I here?"

       "You were at work at the diner and you passed out," Mom said. "Grant, how come you haven't visited us yet since you've been back in Spruceworth?" I shrugged and looked down, even though I knew the answer. "Is it because you're taking cocaine again?"

       Only three people knew I was back on drugs. My boyfriend, my boyfriend's dad, and my sponsor. And only one of them were in the hospital room right now.

       I looked over at Shaw and when I did, Mom immediately said, "He didn't tell me. The doctors had to take some tests to find out the cause of you passing out and there was still some in your system. And that's why you never visited, isn't it?"

       I had to be honest with her right now. That was the main reason and she found it out, so I might as well tell her the rest.

       "I didn't want you to be disappointed in me," I said. "I left Spruceworth without telling anyone except for Ollie but that was after I left. And the reason why I left was to be happy with myself again and to get a better life but... I did the complete opposite."

       "Grant, listen to me," Mom said. "I would never be disappointed f you relapsed. I made a huge mistake with Shaw and treated him poorly  when he got addicted to drugs and alcohol. Multiple times. Then he made the support group for addicts and when I found out that you, my son, were being sponsored by Shaw, I made a vow to myself to never make that mistake again if you ever relapsed."

       "So you're not mad?" I asked.

       "No, of course not," Mom said.

       I felt a wave of relief wash over me but I also felt a tiny bit of guilt. All this time, I could have visited my family without the fear of them being disappointed in me.

       "Grant..." Shaw said slowly as he got closer to the hospital bed. "I'm going to ask you something and I need you to be honest with me. When was the last time you took cocaine?"

       I was silent, not wanting to reply. Shaw promised he would be my sponsor again and for him to be one, I had to tell him when I took drugs or felt like taking drugs. I had been telling him the latter but...

       I may have skipped telling him the last time I took some. I skipped telling everyone.

       "Was it after you returned to Spruceworth?" Shaw asked, my silence being confirmation enough. I hesitated before nodding. "Before or after I knew you were back?"

       "After," I said in a quiet voice. "Four days ago."

       "Four days ago?" Shaw asked. "How come you never told me? I'm your sponsor? It's going to get hard for you to get clean again if you don't tell me." I didn't give him an answer. "Does Ollie know?"

       His question caused me to think of my own question because my mind went flashing back to what I remember from before I woke up in this hospital bed. I was in the diner and Ollie was there because I would have felt a lot better having him stay there while I was at work.