Floral And Fading // Sequel to Choices

FOUR : Talk Less, Smile More

Siren

Today was the day. The day two bands loaded on one bus along with two or three extra people and drive to another location where one band and the two or three extra people will get on another bus and then set out to travel across the country and play music for hundreds of people in a packed stadium.

Fun.

I was sure after everything that happened on Friday night I would be told to stay on the bus with ptv but surprisingly, I was allowed to go on my own band's bus with my mom, Copeland, and Kellin.

Three people who actually completely understood my frustration with Vic.

I spent most of that morning not socializing with anyone however, I was still confused and a little mad about the note from Friday. Kasen wouldn't let me be by myself so they were laying on me while I numbly watched horror movies at 10:30. We weren't playing any shows until around 2 or 3 and the venue was outside. I had avoided looking at any social media, more specifically, any posts about the remembrance tour. We had all gathered in front of the two busses and took a picture and posted them on all profiles for PTV and Transcendent.

I was getting notification all morning and I really didn't want to pay any attention to them but my curiosity was getting to me and the general fans of PTV are actually pretty nice to me.

I sighed and noticied Kasen was asleep on me. I smiled and grabbed my phone and opened Instagram.

I scrolled through a PTV tag and mostly saw some old stuff and edits dedicated to Emmie.

I found a repost of our picture from this morning that we posted with the caption "I love PTV and Transcendent but.....Siren kind of ruins this picture:/ like is she trying to be Emmie? That smile and like pose are exactly what Emmie use to do in old PTV photos. Don't get me wrong Siren is a great bass player for how young she is and Transcendent is a great band for all still being in high school but idk...siren just kind of ruins things for me"

I sighed and rolled my eyes. I try to resist the urge to comment, last time I did that Vic grounded me for 5 weeks because I 'attacked' one of his fans after calling her rude. Like thanks, dad, don't stand up for your daughter or anything.

I did look at the other comments and didn't find many people defending me...not that they should but still.

Love it when people don't realize I can see what they say about me or acknowledge I am my own person and not my dead sister.

Fuck it, what's more grounding when I'm almost completely ignored anyways?

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@ptvemomermaid : oof I feel apperciated thank. also I had no clue Emmie use to do those poses or whatever, I've literally only ever seen like 20 photos of her and she didn't do any of those poses in them. But go off I guess

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and then I got like 50 replies freaking out, asking me to tell my parents hi, and one or two apologizes.

I scrolled some more until I landed on a video edit. I watched it and it was one of those plot twist ones and I smiled when PTV turned into my band and then went through all of the member of Transcendent.

I went to read the caption when Kasen woke up and yeeted my phone across the room.

"Si, no looking at hate, bad emo mermaid."

I rolled my eyes and got up with only a small amount of difficulty. I grabbed my phone off the other couch and turned it around, silently praying it wasn't cracked.