Finding Emotions

Prouloge

Love
What is the feeling to be loved?
am I loved or not..?

Girls
They are just toys made by God to be played by boys

Feelings
What should I feel when you tell a joke?
Should I be happy?Mad?Sad?or...In love?

Im Katelyn Snow Shin lee I am 15 y/o,born on April 17th in Korea,I can speak english and tagalog bc. my dad is half Korean and half Pilipino,mom is half Korean and half American.......And I am emotionless...I have never smiled in my whole entire life......I have siblings im the third one or should I say the youngest...First we have my brother his name is Matthew Jay Shin Lee he is 20 years,he cared about me in the past when we were young,but until he knew that im emotionless he,...well...hated me for some reason......Next is my big sister her name is Shelvie Carol Shin Lee she is now 18 years and she have no reason to care about me,she hated me permanently and I don't know why,i didn't do any thing to them.Here read this so you know how my life is really is,now lets go to the present...

''BRAT,WAKE UP!''-ate shelvie

"o-opo,gising napo ako..."-ako

"HA!EDI BAKIT YUNG MATA MO TUTULOG TULOG!?"-si ate na sabay sipa saakin

inisip ko agad na
"bakit ba hindi ako maka iyak,ako ba talaga ang deserve na magkaroon ng gantong sitwasyon?"-ako

"OH, ANO HINDI KA MAGSASALITA OH SISIPAIN PA KITA?!"-ate

"...."-ako na hindi alam ang sasabihin

"AY WALA KANG SASABIHIN HA,THAT LEAVES ME NO CHOICE BUT TO DO THIS!"-si ate

sinipa nya ako at sinampal ng malakas.malakas na malakas na narinig ni kuya
pumasok si kuya sa loob at inisip ko sa sarili ko na
"no no no no, lagot ako dito malakas manunto ito!"-ako na nahihilo

"huh,anong ginagawa mo Shel-"-kuya
"oh that seams SUPER FUN"-kuya

"I KNOW RIGHT!?"-ate

pinag sususntok nila ako, pinag sasampal at pinag sisipa parang ginawa na nila akong laruan biglang dumating si mom para ibigay ang breakfast ko sa kuwarto ko kase may sakit ako na asma at nong nakita nya kung ano ang nang yayari pinalayas niya sila ate at kuya sa bahay sinabi ko agad kay mom na

"mom palagi na nila ginagawa 'to saakin"-ako

"ok lang yan anak,moms here.."- at sabay iyak ni mom

"m-mom, paano mo nagagawa ang pag iiya-''ako na biglang nahimatay

"S-STIPHANIE! NATHANIEL COME HERE QUICK!"-sigaw ni mom kay dad

======to be continued======