narrative | changlix

XIX.

,, Hey! Felix! "  I startled when I heard Changbin calling my name.

,, What the actual fuck Bin," I put my hands on my ears because he shouted so loudly

,, there's no need to shout so loudly at me like,,, you just scared the shit out of me, bin " i pouted

,, Well its because you were looking at me like I was some kind of a freak and I also called your name like 7 times already and you just kept staring at me?? I had to raise my voice." he sighed

,, Now go to the living room and watch TV while I will clean this mess we made, okay?" we both remained silent.

,,And get yourself together, ur zoning out too much lately."  he cupped my cheeks as we were staring at each other for a minute.

,,.. yeah.. whatever.." I broke the eye contact and went to the bathroom.

I washed my face with cold water and looked up to see my reflection in the mirror. My hair was kinda messy and I had slight dark circles under my eyes. I started thinking about the feeling Changbin gave me again. Felix what the fuck is wrong? This is all wrong, you're acting like a fucking teenage girl in a very bad made drama. I thought.

suddenly it hit me. I'm acting like a teenage girl... a teenage girl that has her first crush. I have a big fat crush on Changbin. oh no, I can't be feeling this way, I looked at myself in the mirror. I can't have a crush on Changbin. This is bad.... its so going to affect our friendship and... This is just so wrong.

i silently stared at myself in the mirror with cool water dripping off my face, ruining the silence in the room.

Hey, maybe it's not even a crush. I'll just let it be... it's nothing,i just wasn't in a relationship for a long time, that's why I'm feeling like this. Yep, thats right, I though.

I heard a knock on my door.

,, Yah, Felix.. you there?"

,, I'm coming, just gimme a second," I quickly dried my face and opened the door. Changbin was lazily leaning against the door frame.

,, Okay, so... what now? " I asked, walking past him to the living room, looking on the floor and avoiding eye contact.

,, Maybe we could go to the arcades? I haven't been there for long time," he smiled.

,,..and we should also bet. Who loses is buying the dinner for the winner. "

,, Dinner for the winner, huh? Okay, that sounds good for me." I smirked

,, Let's go! I'm just gonna change into something el--"

,, You don't have to, this is totally fine," I could feel my cheeks heating up a bit.

,, I..don't want to got there in those sweatpants and the dirty hoodie.. It won't take long, i promise! " I turned around and ran to my room. I grabbed first pants and hoodie I saw in my wardrobe. I quickly ran my fingers thru my hair so it wouldn't be that messy and came out.

Changbin scanned me from the top of my head to my feet. He was starinhg on my legs for too long so I wondered what's wrong. Are they dirty or they have a hole in them? i looked over and I saw which ones I took so i freaked out a little. I only have one pair of those in my wardrobe and "I'm so lucky" that I grabbed exactly them. I was wearing tight-ass-black jeans that had holes on knees.