narrative | changlix

XXXII.

it took me like ten minutes. I stopped the car, got out, locked and walked around this bush just to see changbin walking in circles, biting his nails stressfully. I nearly teared up after seeing him.
I slowly started to walk towards him until he noticed me.

,,..changbinni-" he hugged me tight as never. he kept on squishing me in his arms, I think he started crying for a split of a second.

,,you have no idea how worried i was, felix." he said in a sad voice with serious undertone.

,,i-i know I'm so sorry i-" I panicked

,,what did you want to tell me" he pulled away, holding my arms and looking me deep in my eyes.

,,i-.." I looked away.

,,tell me!" he raised his voice, madly and he harden his grab on my arms.

I looked him in the eyes.

,,i-i was with Chan hyung and I was at his place and I just and he was at my place before and I was sad and he made me soup and I told him about you and I'm wearing your hoodie I just wanted to tell you but you have a crush so I didn't wanna ruin anything between you two so I didn't text you a-" I started panicking.

"-nd I just wanted you be happy because we are best friends and you also made me happy so i wanted to make you happy and I just felt like it's a good thing to do so i-" I was interputed by changbin kissing me.

W A I T

CHANGBIN KISSING ME???

the kiss was so gentle and so soft with so many emotions. it felt like millions of words. I felt all the worry and the stress just...fall off me. his lips tasted like cranberry jam on the softest marshmallow you ever ate. I felt his breath on my face. I melted in the kiss almost immediately.

he pulled away after a little while.

,,I love you, Felix"

I froze in his hands because i was so shocked. I couldn't believe that it's real. my heart was beating very fast and I felt like fainting any moment.

,,..Felix?" changbin said with a little worry in his voice.

,,can you...do that...do it more often?"

changbin smirked.

,,god dammit, I was never this scared." he laughed.

I smiled. I couldn't believe anything that just happened.

he leaned his forehead on mine.

,,I love you so much, you dickhead" he giggled

,,I love you too, seo changbin.." I couldn't believe I would ever say this.