Don't You Touch Her

6 | Let Me Go

3 months have passed now since Rin found the truth.

She's not spoke to Namjoon or Yoongi, what more trouble could she cause them?

She waited in a music practice room, thinking she was alone.

Run sat at a piano, and began to press the keys as if they were easy.

"This is gospel for the fallen ones
Locked away in permanent slumber
Assembling their philosophies
From pieces of broken memories
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
The gnashing teeth and criminal tongues conspire against the odds
But they haven't seen the best of us yet
If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
'Cause these words are knives that often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart"

"Oh Namjoon, Yoongi. I'm so sorry." Rin whispered. "I've done everything wrong. Everything I shall not forget, though I forgot."

Rin pulled out a notebook and a cheap pencil.

Song Lyrics
Let Me Go

Was I ever okay with myself
I didn't know how and why
I can't live in myself anymore
I can't look at your face without being stabbed

Your eyes are icy
I've seen them melt
They become knives,
Stab my heart and my blossoming soul
It's so painful, I can't bear to see
The slices and scars

I'm so sorry
You could have gone but what did I do,
I caused pain for us all
You could have
You should have
Let me, Oh,
Let me go.

"Oh my god." Rin whispered to herself. "I can't live in myself anymore. I'm so lost."

She didn't hear the door open, when unconsciously, Rin played her song, just figuring out keys.

"You're gone." Rin cried. "I could never stop that!"

A slow but steady clapping disrupted her breakdown.

"That was amazing, Princess."

Rin tensed at the boys words. She hastily grabbed her bag and left, forgetting her book.

Rin ran as fast as she could, tears brimming her eyes, fast enough to hopefully get away from Yoongi.

In the rush of running, the girl bumped into another figure.

"Hey wha- Rin!"

Namjoon's voice poisoned her ears, they were the last thing she wanted to hear.

"Where are you going?!"

Rin consoled for a hopefully good excuse, and the first thing that came to mind was, "I'm signing up for the talent competition!"

"What the fuck." Rin whispered to herself, as she steadily paced to the sign up sheet.

Name: Katsuki Rin: Talent: Singing and Piano

"What have I done!?" Rin thought to herself.

Rin emotionlessly passed Namjoon, and made her way back to the room.

"My book!" She cried, when she realised she lost it. Rin hesitantly grabbed it, there's private information in there. Like previous love letters.

From before she almost died.

While Rin was gone:

Yoongi curiously grabbed the book, and flicked to a random page, where he found his name.

(This was wrote before the whole incident)

Dear Min Yoongi,
There is no way in hell you will find this, but it's comforting to write to you.
I've been mentally struggling, because of multiple anxiety attacks, and every time I see you, it feels like nothing was ever wrong.
I've always looked up to you and your music, even though we're 14. It inspired me to learn piano, even mom approves!
The truth is, I really love you, Yoongi. You seem happy with Hyuna, and I know she'll ask you out sometime soon, so good luck, mentally.
I hope she makes you happy.
-Rin

Yoongi went to another page, which coincidentally, was another letter to him.

Dear Min Yoongi,
I've met Namjoon. He's cool I guess, but I get that you may be jealous, but I love you and you only.
You've been seeming off around me lately, and it's kinda scaring me. If I've done something wrong, I won't forgive myself.
-Rin

A lot of the pages were letters to random people.

Dear Min Yoongi,
After telling me my history, I found this, and read everything.
You'll never see this but I am so sorry for putting you through that pain. I cannot forgive myself, it's just so awful for me to do that to you. I hate myself for it.
So for the record and your peace, I might leave for Japan. Home.
-Rin

Dear Kim Namjoon,
I'm not yours.
-Rin

Dear Mom,
How's it up there? Am I making you proud?
-Rin

One letter brought Yoongi to tears though. He could never forget what it said.

Dear Rin,
What is wrong with you? You're a mistake, you're worthless, you've caused pain to two people you love, and you can never talk to them. You're such an idiot, and I hate you.
You don't deserve to live anymore.
Kill yourself again. Please.
I can't live with myself anymore.
-Rin

"Princess..."